September Coooommmmmeeeee Baaaacccckkkk!!!
Sep 20, 2008
Summer is almost over and I can actually say I MADE IT !!! This is one summer that I dont regret!!! Every fall, I used to look back and say "Next year I'm gonna lose the weight and enjoy my life fat free." Well people, THIS YEAR HAS BECOME THAT YEAR... I haven't reached my goal yet nor have I lost the typical 100 lbs but I FEEL GREAT!!! And really, isnt that all we really hope for? I am diabetes free, (knock on wood) my cholesterol is way below 200 (which is where it should be) I have more size 12 clothes than 14's and I am beginning to accept myself in the mirror without any clothes!!! 
The only thing I can find to complain about is my lack of willpower to get the rest of the weight off... I read the profiles of others and see their determination and loyalty to the gym and I am jealous... I have the time yes I do- to hit the gym EVERY DAYUM DAY but I just dont have the willpower! I think what I am going to do is paste a pic of myself pre WLS in various places in my house to encourage excercise. That is a place where I DO NOT want visit again...Now dont get me wrong, I DO hit the treadmill at least 2X a week and I do walk in the park at least 3X a week and I do my hip hop abs in between but I really think I all I am doing is just enough not to gain... HMPH... I WANT TO LOSE!!! I WANT TO LOSE!!! I think I want to lose? NOTE TO SELF: Get your fat a- s- s up and MOVE IT!!! Stay healthy and blessed people!!!
The only thing I can find to complain about is my lack of willpower to get the rest of the weight off... I read the profiles of others and see their determination and loyalty to the gym and I am jealous... I have the time yes I do- to hit the gym EVERY DAYUM DAY but I just dont have the willpower! I think what I am going to do is paste a pic of myself pre WLS in various places in my house to encourage excercise. That is a place where I DO NOT want visit again...Now dont get me wrong, I DO hit the treadmill at least 2X a week and I do walk in the park at least 3X a week and I do my hip hop abs in between but I really think I all I am doing is just enough not to gain... HMPH... I WANT TO LOSE!!! I WANT TO LOSE!!! I think I want to lose? NOTE TO SELF: Get your fat a- s- s up and MOVE IT!!! Stay healthy and blessed people!!!
HEATED!!!!!
Aug 04, 2008
Ok its ON AND POPPIN!!! I recently spoke to my ex-best friend/boyfriend and was very surprised to hear some of his feelings regarding my weight loss... We were talking about dating in today's world and I mentioned that I like dating now because I am actually having fun going places doing things that I didnt in the past because I was fat and miserable... Well I'm still fat but not miserable! But he said that I am a totally different person than I was before and since I "lost a little weight and got my shape back" I have been ignoring him and treating him bad... Well, all we used to do is sit in the house and watch TV which further contributed to my big stomach and thick thighs!!! The New Guy I'm talking to loves to do things!! Last week we went to play paintball!!! He likes to play basketball, softball, and do active things!!! I need that in my life... I dont need someone who WANTS me to stay fat so I can be there in my house waiting for him to come over at any given moment!!! I have read countless stories about people who have ended their marriages after surgery and NOW I SEE WHY!!!!! I am in no way mean towards this guy nor have I ever been... I just havent been spending any time with him AT ALL.. I mean its summer time and who wants to spend the nice days in the house watching TV??? NOT ME...NOT ME.... NOT MEEEE!!!!! So now I am in jeopardy of losing a "friend" and I soooo dont even care...HMPH... HMPH... Take care everyone... Be blessed...
Tricks of the mirror!!!
Jul 17, 2008
Ok I am 2 weeks away from my surgiversary!!! Yeah!!! Whoo Hoo!!! WHATEVER...
I am extremely pleased with my progress but sometimes I just cant help but want more... I mean I have lost 85lbs in a year, stopped taking my asthma and cholesterol meds and all is good... But still I want more... I look at other profiles and see pics of people who look as if they were never ever overweight and I sigh... WE ARENT SUPPOSED TO COMPARE OURSELVES TO OTHER PEOPLE!!! SIGH...I mean I look good, Im in a size 12-14 and I can walk MILES without being tired. BUT I WANT MORE!!!! I am making a vow to myself: I will excercise every day, and change my eating habits to reflect an intelligent and healthy lifestyle. I have just come back from The Dominican Republic... I only went for a weekend but I had a very good time! The young man I met there in April paid for me to come down for a few days. I REALLY had a good time. I dont know if it is the WLS or what but this year, I have met some really nice guys... It has made me reevaluate my past relationships and say goodbye to the people who really didnt have my best interests at heart. I mean, who's to say that these new people dont have the best in store for me but as they wine and dine me , take me places, show me good times WITHOUT the pressure of sleeping with them, I find that I truly am enjoying myself... I can also now say that I DESERVE THIS TREATMENT. I AM WORTHY OF BEING TREATED LIKE A QUEEN AND SO MUCH MORE!!! It is very fun just dating and getting to know myself... I will never ever again settle for less than this... Life is just that good.......TAKE CARE ALL... BE BLESSED...
I am extremely pleased with my progress but sometimes I just cant help but want more... I mean I have lost 85lbs in a year, stopped taking my asthma and cholesterol meds and all is good... But still I want more... I look at other profiles and see pics of people who look as if they were never ever overweight and I sigh... WE ARENT SUPPOSED TO COMPARE OURSELVES TO OTHER PEOPLE!!! SIGH...I mean I look good, Im in a size 12-14 and I can walk MILES without being tired. BUT I WANT MORE!!!! I am making a vow to myself: I will excercise every day, and change my eating habits to reflect an intelligent and healthy lifestyle. I have just come back from The Dominican Republic... I only went for a weekend but I had a very good time! The young man I met there in April paid for me to come down for a few days. I REALLY had a good time. I dont know if it is the WLS or what but this year, I have met some really nice guys... It has made me reevaluate my past relationships and say goodbye to the people who really didnt have my best interests at heart. I mean, who's to say that these new people dont have the best in store for me but as they wine and dine me , take me places, show me good times WITHOUT the pressure of sleeping with them, I find that I truly am enjoying myself... I can also now say that I DESERVE THIS TREATMENT. I AM WORTHY OF BEING TREATED LIKE A QUEEN AND SO MUCH MORE!!! It is very fun just dating and getting to know myself... I will never ever again settle for less than this... Life is just that good.......TAKE CARE ALL... BE BLESSED...
Milestones...
Jun 08, 2008
Hello All...
Well yesterday was my child's graduation from High school... I am so proud of her. I wish she would've decided to go to college but she is so set against school now. Hell Im really surprised that she made it out on time!!! The day was great! It was hot as hell and the devil was out to play... Her father is soooooo stupid I could just kick him... He didnt want to take pictures (with me of course) and he didnt want to go to dinner with the rest of us... So needless to say, my daughter had two graduation dinners... One yesterday and one today... I dont know what is going on inside his head because no matter what went on between us all those many years ago, we are still her parents and thats all that should matter... I dont know what our breakup couldve done to him to make him hate me so much but hey... Shes 18 GET OVER IT!!!! ANYWAY>>>> I am in countdown mode to get rid of my "room mate"... She can stay really for as long as she wants but she needs a good job with benefits and pay... Applebees is not a career!!! I want so much for her but if she doesnt want it for herself then the proverbial buck stops here... Wish me AND my new Roommate luck!!! Take care and DRINK LOTS OF WATER!!!!!
Well yesterday was my child's graduation from High school... I am so proud of her. I wish she would've decided to go to college but she is so set against school now. Hell Im really surprised that she made it out on time!!! The day was great! It was hot as hell and the devil was out to play... Her father is soooooo stupid I could just kick him... He didnt want to take pictures (with me of course) and he didnt want to go to dinner with the rest of us... So needless to say, my daughter had two graduation dinners... One yesterday and one today... I dont know what is going on inside his head because no matter what went on between us all those many years ago, we are still her parents and thats all that should matter... I dont know what our breakup couldve done to him to make him hate me so much but hey... Shes 18 GET OVER IT!!!! ANYWAY>>>> I am in countdown mode to get rid of my "room mate"... She can stay really for as long as she wants but she needs a good job with benefits and pay... Applebees is not a career!!! I want so much for her but if she doesnt want it for herself then the proverbial buck stops here... Wish me AND my new Roommate luck!!! Take care and DRINK LOTS OF WATER!!!!!
I am 40 years and 4 days old!!!
Jun 05, 2008
Well if you count the months I was in the womb Im a bit older but WHO IS COUNTING????? 
So far I am enjoying the 4th decade of my life... I am 85lbs lighter than I was this time last year, I met a few wonderful people, visited some pretty interesting places, done some pretty interesting things, DID I SAY I AM 85LBS LIGHTER ??? Life is sweet !!! Its wonderful to be me at this time!!! So what I'm broke and about 4 paychecks from being homeless but hey--- I look good, Im healthy, and I have a feeling It will only get better!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
Is it time to get a new nutritionist????
May 12, 2008
Ok last Thursday, I had a doctor visit and I saw my nutritionist as well. I havent lost any weight on her scale or mine, so I was kinda in a funky mood...But wait--- Get this: She tells me that not only am I not eating enough protein, I am drinking too much water!!!!! I drink a minimum of 100oz of water a day and thats only measured because I fill up and drink my 50 oz water bottle at least 2 times a day. She says that because I'm drinking so much water its making me full where I dont have room for my solid food. She might be right because I only really eat one meal a day and that takes me all day to finish... Go figure... A few months ago I wasn't drinking enough and now I'm drinking too much. Any way, she tells me that I should add protein powder to my water if Im gonna continue to drink like I do. She also says I should add more carbs to increase my caloric intake and if I have to- leave the veggies alone...WTF????? Cant hurt can it??? SOOOO right now I am actively trying NOT to drink so much water, trying to INCREASE my protein, and substituting rice for broccoli.... AAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!! This weight loss journey is no joke!!!!
On a good note: I later went to see my surgeon and on his scale I am 180!!! so that is 3 lbs lost on record!!! Yay!!!! Take care and Be Blessed!!!
Any way, she tells me that I should add protein powder to my water if Im gonna continue to drink like I do. She also says I should add more carbs to increase my caloric intake and if I have to- leave the veggies alone...WTF????? Cant hurt can it??? SOOOO right now I am actively trying NOT to drink so much water, trying to INCREASE my protein, and substituting rice for broccoli.... AAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!! This weight loss journey is no joke!!!!On a good note: I later went to see my surgeon and on his scale I am 180!!! so that is 3 lbs lost on record!!! Yay!!!! Take care and Be Blessed!!!
MAY HEY HEY!!!
May 05, 2008
Ok I'm 3 days out from my yearly trip to the Dominican Republic... I must say it was SOME trip... The pool ambushers didnt go on the trip this year but thats ok cause I didnt really believe I could fly anyway... I did however meet a very nice local who promises to make my future trips ummm... promising... No I dont plan on bringing anything back to the states other than my own luggage and maybe a few memories but I do plan on having a good time!!! I might even make a trip or two BEFORE my April 2009 trip!!! HOLA PAPI COMO ESTAS...
update: No I didnt lose any weight--- Yes I am still obese--- but I am a nicely toasted brown!!!
update: No I didnt lose any weight--- Yes I am still obese--- but I am a nicely toasted brown!!!
Just when am I gonna just be plump?
Apr 23, 2008
HEIGHT: 5'4
WEIGHT: 183
You have a BMI of 31.4.
This indicates that you are Obese.
Your BMI is generally high enough to qualify you for bariatric surgery if you have comorbid conditions such as diabetes (type II), hypertension, sleep apnea or other potentially life-threatening diseases.
HELLO???? does this mean that I STILL QUALIFY FOR SURGERY???????
I was all set to go on my trip and drop it like its hot while wearing the skimpiest thong bikini I could find!!! TALK ABOUT A WAKE UP CALL!!!!
JUST KIDDING!!!!!
Im going on my annual trip to The Dominican Republic and I am so happy that Im 80+ pounds lighter than I was last trip!!! I am looking forward to see the look on the guys faces when they no longer have to "team up" on me to throw me in the pool!!! I just might even be able to "fly through the air like a bird!!" Sorry... If you are just now seeing the silly side of me then I apologize. Fat will disguise things ya know! I am just so happy to go on vacation that I have been giddy for the past week. TWO MORE DAYS TO GO!!!! I just hope I dont get sick while Im there because for some reason I ALWAYS get sick there. I dont drink the water(I bring my own) and I dont eat the ice(well I try not to) I think its just the acclimation or lack of between me and the DR... But wait... 1 day praying to the porcelain gods = 5lbs lost!!!! WHHHOOOOOHOOOOO!!!! Once again just kidding... maybe... See ya when I come back!!!!!
WEIGHT: 183
You have a BMI of 31.4.
This indicates that you are Obese.
Your BMI is generally high enough to qualify you for bariatric surgery if you have comorbid conditions such as diabetes (type II), hypertension, sleep apnea or other potentially life-threatening diseases.
HELLO???? does this mean that I STILL QUALIFY FOR SURGERY???????
I was all set to go on my trip and drop it like its hot while wearing the skimpiest thong bikini I could find!!! TALK ABOUT A WAKE UP CALL!!!!
JUST KIDDING!!!!!
Im going on my annual trip to The Dominican Republic and I am so happy that Im 80+ pounds lighter than I was last trip!!! I am looking forward to see the look on the guys faces when they no longer have to "team up" on me to throw me in the pool!!! I just might even be able to "fly through the air like a bird!!" Sorry... If you are just now seeing the silly side of me then I apologize. Fat will disguise things ya know! I am just so happy to go on vacation that I have been giddy for the past week. TWO MORE DAYS TO GO!!!! I just hope I dont get sick while Im there because for some reason I ALWAYS get sick there. I dont drink the water(I bring my own) and I dont eat the ice(well I try not to) I think its just the acclimation or lack of between me and the DR... But wait... 1 day praying to the porcelain gods = 5lbs lost!!!! WHHHOOOOOHOOOOO!!!! Once again just kidding... maybe... See ya when I come back!!!!!
Come on April!! Stop fooling me!!!
Apr 18, 2008
183 lbs... getting closer to goal but yet so far away... Today I went to Macy's to pick up some last minute items for my trip... I automatically went to the 7th floor which is the plus sized floor... Today something told me to try the clothes on. I had some white capri jeans from INC, a green and white patterned dress from Style& Co, and a tan and orange dress from calvin Klein... I was happy as a bug in a rug at my would be purchases because ALLL of the items were at least 50% off and if youve read my last post you know I am B-R-O-K-E!!!! Well to make a long story short, NONE of the things fit!!! THEY ALL WERE TOO BIG!!!!! That should have been a WOW moment right there!!! I had all 14's in my hand and they were all big--- sloppy big... the lady in the fitting room said " I couldve told you that nothing ws gonna fit you what are you doing on this floor trying on stuff anyway?" Well I just walked right on outta there and down to the 5th floor... I picked up some 16's and some 14's and went on into the fitting room... I was upset cause of course I didnt find any of the items that were on the 7th floor but I did get a few cute things... first thing the 16's were still too big... So suffice it to say I am no longer in a size 16 ANYTHING 
!!!! BUT the 14's were tight!!! not tight enough for me to leave them in the store though...I guess Im now used to my pants being too big and saggy But that experience took alot out of me. When I was a size 20 I KNEW what fit and what didnt... I did most of my shopping online and EVERYTHING fit!!! Now I must go into the stores and try on stuff !!! And if something didnt fit just right? it was ok cause I was fat... I didnt like form fitting tops, now I have to show off my new waistline!!! OH well I need to stop before OH takes my blog and puts it in the RANT AND RAVE FORUM!!!!! Take care everyone!! Remember, Take your vitamins and drink your water!!!!!!
!!!! BUT the 14's were tight!!! not tight enough for me to leave them in the store though...I guess Im now used to my pants being too big and saggy But that experience took alot out of me. When I was a size 20 I KNEW what fit and what didnt... I did most of my shopping online and EVERYTHING fit!!! Now I must go into the stores and try on stuff !!! And if something didnt fit just right? it was ok cause I was fat... I didnt like form fitting tops, now I have to show off my new waistline!!! OH well I need to stop before OH takes my blog and puts it in the RANT AND RAVE FORUM!!!!! Take care everyone!! Remember, Take your vitamins and drink your water!!!!!!
APRIL FOOLS!!!
Apr 02, 2008
Ok I could've posted yesterday but I dont call April 1st April fools day because it is the day my lil poohbaby was born... SIGH... 18 years ago ....WTH!!! 18 YEARS AGO??!?!?!?!?! OMG!!! I'm FREEEEEEEEEE !!! Gone are the days where I need a baby sitter!!! Gone are the days where I need to clean up behind some sloppy behind child!!! Oh wait a minute! THOSE DAYS SHOULDVE BEEN GONE A LONG TIME AGO!!!!! SIGH... Oh well it should be any day now maybe she'll go to college and never come back home to live... Maybe she'll get a good job, move out and I'll never have to remind her to clean her room or tell her to clean the dishes... Maybe SHE'LL NEVER LEAVE...............AGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Ok... my sanity is coming back... Nothing new to report: I'm still fat and still craving carbs...
But one thing I've noticed: Mammograms dont hurt half as much as they used to now that my girls are no longer full and fluffy!!!
Be good everybody!!!
But one thing I've noticed: Mammograms dont hurt half as much as they used to now that my girls are no longer full and fluffy!!!
Be good everybody!!!
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Hollis, NY
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Oct 21, 2003
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