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well its been a long summer and it was a busy one my fill in july helped a bit but I am not happy to report i have not made my goal of 100 pounds in a year no ones fault but my own. i took meridia for a while on and off and wasnt really happy with the way it made me feel do to a temporary loss of insurance I have not been to get a fill or see my dr to discuss the meridia I know I need a fill but he meridia made me not able to sleep and was making me a little paranoid strange dreams and other physical yuckies so i could not take it continuously the result has been no weight loss . bad food choices on top of not having a full sensation = nothing soo thats that I know ive got to be more vigilant Its hard somtimes cause your getting all this praise for how well your doing and everyone telling me dont be so hard on yourself I tend to listen to them LOL its easier than doing what i need to do . but another day is here and looking back on the last year it has been ablessing i have been happy healthy and feelin great my biggest regret not going to thr gym all summer but im back in the pool and I just keep moving Iam soo thankfull to everyone on this site for their courage and support for sharing their thoughts and fears it makes this journey enjoyable to anyone getiing ready to do this do it you can and will succeed ....more later its a journey not a race right 
332/259/ 199 or wherever god takes me

7/12/08  17 days since my last fill DDDDDDDDDDDD slump over weight 264 down 8 pounds  whoo hooo eating much less the meridia is a little to strong for me take it every couple days works well im calm LOL and not hungry  I have three months and one week to reach my 100 pounds in a year goal   sooo much closer now and oh so ready for it 
 332/264/232 goal for now    bmi was 57 now 45.3 not bad

Ok Disgusted last post after a fill which I knew was not enough I have lost 2 pounds since then 2 stinkin pounds since april 23 I work out Iam very active and have been honestly eaing pretty well what the HELL ...fill scheduled for tuesday 6/26 If that man tells me im tight i swear im gonna sock him in his head I am never stuck and rarely only during hormonal times am I tight at all can eat anything a a good bit at that Im annoyed and discouraged I look and feel great but come on now fillll tha dang thing more later :) there scale said 272 its ok  TOM  Had my fill had the assistant she says Im tight I say NOT  I can eat a whole sandwich she looks suprised she says i have not streched the pouch so she will give me a little more UGGGH 6.8  and says if I can still eat a sandwich I should come back WHAT  HELLOOOO thats why I went  If I have to go back  within  the month Im bringing the sandwich and Im gonna make her eat it she needs it  why are all my docs 84 friggin pounds ok im on liqueds and a little crabby  ....hoping once again to hit the sweet spot my fabulous cool Dr. gave me meridia to see if that has an effect well see she says it works well with the band she understands I have no patience and a goal to meet   CiAO 

WHOO HOOO FINALLY !  had a fill on april 3rd  this makes 6.5 ccs I think  he said I had enough restriction still no where near what i thought it would be like but  I think my brain is finally getting it  im a little tighter in the morning and just plain focused now tired of the ups and downs I know thats life but Ive stuck to smaller portions and some nights are just a salad and im fine Happy to say Im finally past the stuck mark and weighed in for two days straight at 270 thats 62 pounds HAPPY DANCE ya I know Ive got a long way to go but everyday is part of the journey and Im so Thankfull  Im happy healthy and ready for anything Have a great day and hang in there !!!! 4/13/07

well 5 months and 2 days later Im happier healthier and still fighting my food demons my weight is going up and down  a few pounds back and forth on a good day 275 on a bad day 278 i do great for a few days and then bam im shoving down something stupid  self sabatoge ??? my life has changed and im certian things will continue to progress Down the scale my excercise is consistant swimming 3 days a week and I bought the bean (workout blow up thingy ) and am working on finding my inner abs LOL there there somehwere I even took my clothes to cleaners for some major tailoring im down to 24 from a tight 28 botton 30/32 top feels good . scheduled my next fill for 4/3 and positve Im gonna reach the illusive sweet spot this time around ive got goals to meet  TTFN   

had a fill 2/20/07 on the end of pnumonia and a huge round of meds that made me gain 8 pounds I weighed in at 286 YIKEES my fill from last time was incorrect total was 4.5 not 5.5 and now im at 6.0 feel a little tighter not big time no pb or anything weighed in today after final meds and thank goodnes the water retension went away back down to 278 much better 54 pounds lost finally under the 280 mark very thankfull and very impatient as always have a goal of 240 by may 25th really need to make it happen gonna work hard to see it does ....more later

1/16 had second fill Dr filled from 2.5cc to 5.5 ccs had him take some out so im at 5ccs kinda took him a while 4 tries to be exact no pain but dont like being a pin cushion either had me lay down this time to do it not liking that prefer to stand up i am a bit tighter but still no problem with anything I eat I am thankfull but wonder what really tight means he said I was tight but really dont feel much different so have to watch my portions my weight has been the same since december much of it has to do with me and not the band bad food choices and the calories add up .i am enjoying my excercise routine in the pool three times a week and  feel i may need to add somemore excercise but that causes more hunger  whats a girl to do ?? will update current weight at the end of the week looking fora change here LOL

PHHHHHHHT Crap o rama stuck like pooh in the hole of the tree weight has been back and forth by 3 pounds made it down to 282 but back to 285 284 uuuggh scheduled the second fill for  1/16 hoping to hit that  right place statred my 3 day a week excercise program all is good feel great just looking at the scale with disgust HEHEHE.

ok my fill was very conservative i feel very little restriction. I can eat anything with no problem even bread  my portions are smaller compared to pre op but still can eat a good bit I think another fill is on order after the holidays not really trying to push it just keeping an eye on the scale so far its cooperating 7 lbs since my fill not bad I guess my energy is way up and I have taken on some remodeling in my house  ha thats an understatement TTFN   

Happy Happy Joy Joy !   today was my first fill and everything went great no pain no problems  i have the Vg band and were I think conservative filling 2.5cc  so well see that all for now I  LOVE MY Band