2 week countdown starts!

Jan 14, 2009

So in 13 days, 23 hours and 54 minutes, I will be taking off for San Antonio, via Atlanta.  It's very surreal.  In some ways, I feel SO ready for this, and in others I am SO overwhelmed.  And sometimes hesitant - not so much about the surgery, though I must admit to a few what the FUCK are you thinking having your 80% of your stomach removed, AND paying for the priviledge?!? - but more about the money.  This is a hell of a lot of money for us (and more every day it seems with the damn exchange rate getting worse, grrr) and while it's not money I'd be using to pay bills per se, it's still going to hurt. 

Part of how I'm justifying it to myself is that with the surgery, hopefully my sleep apnea will go away.  And even if it doesn't 100% go away, I know being lighter will give me more energy no matter what.  So I figure more energy = me working more = more money coming in.  That's one of the upsides of my job, I can submit for whatever hours I want (though I don't necessarily get them all) and if there are any hours left after the computer has assigned all of them, or someone doesn't feel like working, I can go pick up even more hours from what we call the "swap" board.  Last winter I worked 40-50 hours per week most weeks.  So far this fall/winter, I'm averaging no more than 30 (and not even that most weeks).  I just have no energy or motivation to do my job(s).  Also, my better paying job has a stupid cow as a supervisor.  Suffice to say I can't stand her and if I want more hours, I'll have to work when she does and read her stupidities in our work chat room. (we are all remote CSR's)  That's what I love about overnights - I don't have to see her AND it's quiet, so I get paid to play video games all night :)  And surf OH of course!

So that's what's on my brain tonight.  I basically want to get this over with so I don't have second guess everything anymore.  Even if I go through the dreaded "what did I do to myself" that most people seem to go through, at least it's DONE then and I can't change it - unless there's a revision where they sew stomachs back in? LOL

T :)

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