1 Year!!

Oct 05, 2010

Well tomorrow will be my 1 year surgiversary!  I am excited and proud to say I am holding at 149 of course it fluctuates 1 to 2 lbs in either direction on any given day and that is all I will allow.  I love my life and love this gift that I have been given.  I am not embarrassed or afraid to do anything.  I love going out with my husband now and was truly holding him back with my insecurities before.  I look back and really don't know how he put up with me as miserable as I was.  He has supported me in this 100% and he is now reaping some of the benefits.  He also acknowledges how much happier I am.  I enjoy going into a store and trying clothes on now, whereas before I just purchased them and brought them home and if they did not fit I had to carry them back.  I love looking in the mirror now - hated to even catch a glimpse of myself this time last year.  There are so many things I want to do that I could not or would not do before.  I have not been camping with my husband for a long time so we are getting ready to go on a camping trip soon.  We have gone to a couple of concerts and I have enjoyed them.  I took my grand kids to the zoo and it was great. 
It has not all been easy.  After my surgery I did really well for about 4 months and then I started getting sick.  Stomach pains that had me feeling as if I was in labor.  It got pretty bad for a while.  I went for 2 CT scans an upper GI and last but not least a stomach ultrasound where they found gall stones.  Had the gall bladder out and was still walking around in pain before they finally diagnosed me with an ulcer.  Wow that small little purple pill was all it took to make me feel like I was back in the land of the living!  I was getting very discouraged and regretting the surgery if I had to walk around sick for the rest of my life.  But, that was what it was and I am better now! 
I have so much to be grateful for.  I am blessed with a truly great family, very supportive husband and awesome friends.  They have all stuck by me throughout this life changing process.  Without them I don't know if I would have ever taken this step.   I will continue to Thank the Good Lord Above for carrying me through this.  I have a renewed confidence in myself and I am proud of me for a change!  I can honestly say through it all if I had to do it over again I would in a heart beat.  I asked my husband if he knew 1 year ago what he knows today would he have been as supportive and he also has no regrets as he got his wife back!  My only thing now is to maintain this level of healthful happiness.   I am still trying to lose weight but am happy where I am and if more wants to come off then great.  My doctor said that my body will know when to stop so...we will see.  One last thing - I want to Thank Everybody on OH that has also given me the support when I needed it and information etc... this is a great place and I recommend it to anybody I know that is even considering or has been through any wls or is battling weight issues.

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