5 Months Since Lap Band Surgery

Jan 30, 2009

It's been a long time since my last post.  I've had 3 total fills and am down 40 pounds from my pre-op weight.   I fully understand those who have stated that WLS is only a tool, as I have learned I still have to deal with my emotional food triggers and to stop eating when my stomach is full.  The band, certainly lets us know when we are full and I am beginning to realize that I have to be constantly aware of my head hunger and desire to continue to taste.  As they say, awareness is key, then we must take action to change. 

On Halloween, I sort of short circuited after I was let go from my job after 17 years in the same company and 28 years in my profession.  I was having a different kind of emotional crisis and  my emotions spiraled through the Holidays where I did not choose well and was lucky to have maintained my weight and not gain. 

When I went for my 3rd Fill on January 27th, I snapped.  I had major life changing WLS in August and I'm not going to continue this pity party to put another failure under my belt!  I am going to change my life and I will walk through the new door that God provides me, in his time.  In the meantime, I will prepare myself, take care of myself and continue to have a positive attitude about my future.   So,  I am back to making wise choices - more protein & veggies, less carbs.  I'm also going to set three new goals for myself to help me stay focused:
1.  Stay connected by using my OH tools by reading about other successful people and their WLS journey.
2.  Blog about my experience.
3.  Start exercising.

Like anything in life, you have to use it or lose it.  When I was preparing for surgery, I read everything, weighed everything and was so conscious of what I ate and how I felt.  I was excited and driven towards my goal.  Well, here I am again,  ready to get myself back on track, using my tools, staying aware and focused to achieve my WLS goal of good  health and better self esteem.  The information and friends on OH will be my guide.

Although I detest exercise, I have begun to visualize myself working out at the gym.  I finally joined the local Community Center and have made a committment to begin a cardio and circuit training program.  I will keep you posted as I progress.

Until my next blog, be well dear friends!

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