13 weeks, 59 pounds

Jan 28, 2010

A little update. :)

In the last few days, I've actually (according to Wii Fit) gained about half a pound back. The BMI is teetering upwards by mere decimal points. This happened to me a few weeks back, but only once. I subsequently dropped 15 pounds. I don't know what's up. I've looked back on what I've been eating, and the food is getting a bit richer; I don't do just cheese and crackers anymore. I recently turned to salads with plenty of chicken or tuna and have been using a light sesame ginger dressing or just regular ranch. If it's really the ranch's fault, that would be awful. I don't get in much more fat a day than a couple of tablespoons of salad dressing, so the culprit still eludes me.

My portion sizes have changed. They're larger. I am no where near as bottomless as I was before surgery, but it has to be noted that at 3 months out, I've wondered if I have stretched my pouch prematurely. Paired with the inexplicable weight gain (not even a pound yet, but I'm terrified of the Wii Fit board now), my spirits are down despite the progress I've made so far.

My 3 month check-up was last week; the doctor told me I am ahead of schedule and the percentage of weight loss I'm experiencing is higher than typical results (me = 38%, typical = somewhere around 25-30%?). I just smile happily and nod, but I have no idea what that really means. I leave the office wondering if those figures are given to make me feel better.

In any case... the way it feels to have nearly 60 pounds off of me is--to say the least--relieving. To be honest, although it's a bit of a shame, I still don't like looking in the mirror and am all too acutely aware of the 95 pounds that still remain to be lost. It's been too easy in the last few days to really resent myself over the fact that I had become so big... And still am.

I'd like to write more about what's happening in my life, but I'm finding it hard to sit still for too long. I might update my photo album later with more comparisons. No full body shots, unfortunately. Maybe when I'm braver.

For now, here's a... time lapse type of deal:

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