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I haven't updated my blog in a long long time. I suppose I have allowed life to take over. A year ago today I had my surgery. So much has happened in the last year. I have lost 90 pounds. I have stopped most medications. I no longer need to use a cpap machine at night to sleep. I am 200% healthier than I was a year ago. Clothing sizes have changed so dramatically. Never would I have imagined being able to wear a size 12. 
One of the best experiences of this pastas been my bond with so many amazing people as a result of this forum. The maryland forum, the October 2006 forum and the Over fifty Forum have held my hand through this past year. I only hope that I will be able to hold someone's hand as well. I want to give back what I have received. 
I took a wonderful trip to Dallas Texas last weekend spending 4 fun filled days with 21 other women who have lost weight. 2700 pounds among us. That is unimaginable and incredible. We all did it. We did it together. I fel to much love, compassion, comraderie, and support from all of these people. I hope the high I feel from Dallas doesn't leave me until I am on my next trip to enjoy life with my fellow wl sisters and brothers.

I had my 5 month weigh in yesterday. Got my B-12 shot and could feel my body buzzing all day. I am down another 8 lbs (6 by the docs scale- i was fully clothed.). My BMI still has me in the obese range, but it is about 10 pts less then when I started this experience.
I calculated my total loss yesterday. I have lost 67 lbs since surgery. I find that number amazing. I always knew I needed to lose about 150 lbs. to get to a healthy BMI, but 67 lbs already. My friend's grandson weighs about that much. 
Hopefully some warmer weather will show soon so I can't get out of the house and move some. I need to exercise so I can assist my loss. I know I have slowed because I am not very active. It is just so hard to go out in the cold. I think I could easily become a winter hermit. 

I haven't added anything here over the past several weeks. Life has taken over in many forms. Unfortunately, it took over in the form of severe depression most recently. I went backon medication and I am slowly feeling better. 
I got involved in a relationship about the time of my surgery. It has been an up and down relatinship. Right now it is way down. While I don't care for the manner in which it happened, I have to reflect on some of the things said to me. I do tend to react quickly. I think I need to stop and wait for a moment before I react. I need to realize that not everything is a personal attack on me. This is hard after living in a life whre everything was a personal attack. Damn that husband for screwing me up so much.
I think I am doing so so with my wl at this point. I am losing just very slowly compared to before. I am in the 180's. I have a hard time reading my scale. I should have splurged and purchased a digital one, but I am always trying to save money. 
My wardrobe is dwindling fast. It seems every 2 weeks or so I am taking garbage bags full of clothes out of here. I really need to spend some time in a thrift shop over the weekend. I need some clothes that fit. 

Since I had my 3 month follow up appointment, I have had so many changes. I attended a WLS event in Richmond which was fantastic. I learned alot about this journey from the people that attended and presented. I had more fun than I have had in years. I danced all night. I broke a sweat and didn't care. 
I am finally in Onederland. I made it to Onederland the day I left for Richmond. The scale read 198. I reweighed myself the other day and it read 196. I have bones again. I can feel bones that have been missing in action for years. My collarbone, my hips, my knees, my ankles, and my wrists are all visible now. 
I am trying not to stress about the sagging and wrinkled skin. I will be going for a free Bally's membership this morning so maybe getting back to some real exercise will help to tone my skin. 
I am in awe of the changes.
Oh, and my BMI is now 38.2. That is 10 points since October.

I realized as I was typing that I was creating my next blog record.
Thank good ness for copy and paste.
This week has been a killer week both in stress and successes related to my wl. Work is the stressor. Enough said about that.
Monday- I saw my nephrologist. I have a bizarre kidney disease that is monitored by a kidney specialist. Before my rny, they wanted double assurance that it would be ok with Dr. Zemel. He was so happy when he saw me. He is pleased with my results. He does want to make sure that I am continuing in the right directions so he will monitor me a little more closely for awhile.
Wednesday-  3 month post op appointment. I weighed myself in the morning so I could compare it with the scale at my surgeon's office. Clothes do add. I was 202 stark naked. The scale at my docs office said 204.5. I am happy with both sets of numbers. DVR was very pleased with my progress and results. I asked what his goal weight for me would be and he said they have a goal BMI not weight. Then he told me I have lost 33% of the excess weight in 3 months. That is just amazing to me when it is put in that manner. 33%
I also made another observation. As I kept gaining weight, I wasn't able to wear much of my jewlery without making an adaptation. My sons would keep giving me beautiful necklaces that would choke me. Now the necklace I wear all the time is too long. I can go back to wearing a normal chain length again. Also, i have noticed that my post earring fit better. They aren't looking like they want to squeeze through the other side of my ear. Also, I am not as fearful of having the back fall off. My wire earring slip in the holes more easily as well. Who would have thought that we lose weight in our ears also. I love these little discoveries.

This has been an interesting day to say the least.. and it isn't over yet.
My morning started pretty much the way it always does- coffee on OH. I went to get ready for work- no problems. As I went to gather the items I needed for work, I couldn't find them at all. My badge- missing. My cell phone- missing. I had to leave because I needed to stop over my eldest son's apt to get my christmas ornaments he neglected to return to me last year. I dug through my purse all the way to his apt... a 20 minute drive.
When I walked in to his apt, he looked at me and said " Gee Mom, your skinny" and grabbed my face. What a nice spin that added to my day. His father was there having breakfast with him and he also said I was looking good. That kinda felt nice as he just keeps getting bigger and bigger. ( My wish when we got divorced was for him to get old ugly and fat. ) I know.. bad Aime.. but hey!
I went about heading to work. Today I had to go to schools to audit some records. I was finished at the first school in 30 minutes. I couldn't go to the next school as a possible Monitor could show up. So- I went shopping. I found a few things to fit me. That was so exciting.
I came home for lunch and found my badge and my cell phone. After the next school, I went for my weigh in appointment. I am down to 214. My BMI is 43%. Woo Hoo! I got my B12 shot so now I am raring to go. My Nut also gave me the go ahead to eat salad. I have missed green veges so much. So I stopped on the way home and picked up some to have for dinner. I have enjoyed every single bite.
Like I said- What a day!

Every once in awhile I recalculate my BMI here on the site. I did that yesterday. I am no longer morbidly obese. I am now Very Obese. I'll never forget hearing a doctor tell me I was morbidly obese. That sent me into a depression so badly. All I could think was my fat will make me die. That was about 10 years ago. I am so thankful that same doctor suggested that I consider WLS. I was also very upset by his recommendation. I couldn't help but think that he had no faith in me at all. I realized later that he was actually trying to help me. I am so thankful I can talk openly with my doctor. Better yet- he listens to me. I had to make a point to him that I do know my body, and after I did he began to respect me- or at least it seemed so.
10/12 256
12/10 216... I am on my way.

On my way to visit my mother for the holiday, I stopped by my sister's house to pick up a bag of clothes she had for me. The bag is huge. I could barely lift it. Anyway, I opened the bag after I arrived at Mom's and glanced through at some of the clothing. Since Mom lives in the mountains, I grabbed a set of flannel pajamas I saw in the bag. I looked at the size tage and grimaced. It said extra large. I thought that maybe I could use the top as a cover shirt. I tried the top on and it fit. I could button it without and area pulling. That encouraged me to try the bottoms. They also fit. In 6 weeks, I have gone from wearing a size 24 or 2-3X to extra large. I can't believe it. I don't recall the last time in my life I could wear extra large. What a wonderful Thanksgiving blessing! 
I can't wait to try on the rest of the clothes!

I was walking into my office building this morning when I noticed that my undergarment was starting to slide off my now much smaller tush. I couldn't exactly fix the problm at that moment and had to wait til I could get to a restroom. I am so lucky that I wore jeans today. Who know what embarassing moment I would have had...
It feels good knowing that all of my clothing is getting to big.

I am down 26 lbs. I am feeling pretty well. I have had a few problems with some foods. I am learning what to eat and not to eat. This new pouch doesn't play games when it is unhappy. Finally got a B12 shot and I am praying this helps with my energy level. My house needs to be cleaned and the dog still won't do it. 
Month 2 here I come.