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Well, my story is not much different than those I've read so far. I too have been over weight since I was a kid. I was in the 5th grade when I first began to put on weight ( that's when puberty kicked in). My mother said that I was the type of kid that gained a little weight during the summer and would loose it when school would start, but this time she noticed that I didn't loose the weight. By the time I left the 6th grade I had (not began to have) breast and was wearing a bra!!! How traumatizing to a child. I distinctly remember in the 7th grade wearing a pair of jeans that were tight. Why were they tight, they weren't tight before. My family never mentioned or fussed about my weight. Though my father would encourage me to participate in weight loss challenges with him. I still didn't know I was overweight. Sad to say my first attempts at weight loss was in middle school and I was on the Atkins diet. From then on the weight has slowly but most assuredly increased to this very day. So lets see, I've had the pleasure of doing the Atkins, South Beach, Weight watchers, more Atkins, Low Carb, Starvation, Diet bars, Fulbar, Medifast, and Weight loss pill diets all to no avail. I have had memberships to various gyms and clubs. When in middle school I attempted to run track, but was not comfortable with my womanly body and the boys who were discovering there manly bodies. So I stopped that quickly. In high school I failed gym class and had to take during the summer because I refused to run with the larger than life breast. Now I am 42, 5ft even and at my highest weight ever. I look like a fat jovial person, but am depressed and totally obsessed with my weight and size. I have high blood pressure and have had 2 procedure done on my heart to control it's rate. I am not diabetic but I can not begin to tell you how afraid I am of becoming one. Heart disease and diabetes is a killer in my family. My father, mother (newly diagnosed) my father's brother and sister and mother along with his nephew all had/have diabetes. I have seen how it has and continues to destroy my father's life. Not only that but I am embarrassed to say but I am a RN and see soooooo many people with this horrible disease. I am embarrassed that as an OBESE nurse I cannot truly give people advice about there health when I'm a walking time bomb. I was recently told that I have polycystic ovaries (after many years of complaining of the many symptoms associated with this disease). After learning about this disease I came to learn it is also a contributing factor to my weight gain which is a contributing to my infertility. I so desire to have at least 1 kid and I know I need to get rid of this weight to do so. This and many many other reason have prompted me to take charge of my life and do what I need to do to be healthy and live as best a life I can until I die. I remember that a passage in the bible said "If thy hand offend thee, cut it off or if thy eye offend thee, pluck it out" So that being said.... My stomach has been offending me for the last 30 yrs so I want it out!!!!! I have decided to have the Vertical sleeve gastrectomy. I am on my 5th month of 6 months of doctors visits to loose weight. I have completed ever request that was given me by the surgeon. I am more than ready to begin my journey to a healthier me. I am sure I have said more than enough and will stop there. Look forward to seeing more weight loss postings from everyone here and making some wonderful friends.
