OT - Christianity
The best answer I can give you is to go to Jesus,he knows all about you,he loves,loves,loves you more then you can know.He will not judge you,or turn you away for any reason.You don't need anything special,you don't need to "clean yourself up" go to him as you are and tell him your doubts,fears,needs and wants.He'll answer,sometimes it's a still small voice,sometimes it's just a knowing,sometimes the very answer in the form of a person will come to your front door.He knows what you need and he'll give it to you.
Be blessed my friend,and remember God Loves You!!!
Be blessed my friend,and remember God Loves You!!!