when do you start to Love yourself?
It also sometimes takes several years before people's brains catch up with their bodies and they begin to see themselves as the normal-sized people that they have become. WHen you will START to see the change is really a very individual thing and depends a lot on how much weight you have to lose. (For people witha LOT of weight to lose (150-200 pounds or more), it can take losing 50 pounds before you cahnge a single clothing size, so that makes it harder to SEE the transformation that is taking place. Fortunately, the smaller you get, the less weight you have to lose to change a clothing size.
If you are not in counseling, I would strongly suggest that you find a counselor with experience with addictions counseling, or with eating disorders to help you with this process so that you have the best chance of long-term success.
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
Surgery does not make you love yourself, either. I don't know when you will start to love yourself. Maybe when you get some therapy to help with your addiction.
Please note: I AM NOT A DOCTOR. If you want medical advice, talk to your doctor. Whatever I post, there is probably some surgeon or other health care provider somewhere that disagrees with me. If you want to know what your surgeon thinks, then ask him or her. Check out my blog.
SO ... last February I went to my seminar and here I am. Changing my life in evey positive way I can think of :)
Just a thought .
Having said that, what SHOULD determine your satisfaction with yourself and your life is how you LIVE. Surgery and getting healthy, taking care of yourself so you can take care of the ones you love...definately a step the right direction.
Speaking of my own experience with this the past year...I still hate my body. I've gone from an obese "ugly" person to a skin flappin, thin haired, wrinkly faced "ugly" person. At 5'7" and 195lbs, I still have my fat rolls, they just hang lower. My boobs look like thin little cow udders when I bend at the waist, and my hair, although never fabulous, is just horrible. But I'll tell you...the love from my family and friends hasn't changed, it's still the same. I know what I have accomplished this year, and I have a clear path for the coming year...it's a process I will NEVER regret, even with the negatives! Love yourself for what you've done and are doing and about to do...not for who is looking back at you in that mirror!
On the topic of addiction...I'm a food addict, my brother in law is an alcoholic, I know drug addicts, gamblers, etc. An addiction is a constant and life long battle, it is never cured. I will give you this piece of advice...stay away from high fructose corn syrup...even in low dosages. It triggers the pleasure centers of your brain...acts like a drug/alcohol and makes you crave it even more. Don't cave into the "oh a little bit won't hurt" because that is where it starts...next thing you know you've downed a half gallon of ice cream and calling out to God to kill you because you are too sick to move! If you crave a sweet, make it yourself. Use a little cane sugar, but mostly artificial sweeteners. The cane sugar will calm your craving (especially at that time of the month) and it won't make you keel over from sugar overdose.
You don't need to lose food...you need to portion control it. Deserts, yes, you need to be careful with...but you can still have them. Heed this warning, though, DO NOT EAT A DESERT AT A RESTAURANT. They are oversized and WILL make you sick.
Please note: I AM NOT A DOCTOR. If you want medical advice, talk to your doctor. Whatever I post, there is probably some surgeon or other health care provider somewhere that disagrees with me. If you want to know what your surgeon thinks, then ask him or her. Check out my blog.
I am a licensed professional counselor, and I can tell you that MANY more of the women who are MO or SMO have a history of childhood abuse (physical or sexual) or neglect, or of adult trauma (usually rape) than are food addicts. They eat for comfort and they use (or attempt to use) the excess weight as "protection" from further assault/abuse.
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
Mostly because, first and foremost, food addicition has very little to do with food. If it wasn't food it would be something else. But for the most part, it's about hurting yourself because for whatever reason you don't feel worthy of happiness and well-being. It's that process. Food was just the vehicle I used to hurt myself. So when I hear people say they are food addicts because they feel guilty about enjoying a cookie...yeah that drives me a bit batty.
While I wouldn't say ALL post-ops are food addicts, I'd be willing to bet a fair share are and don't really know it. Not that they are in denial, just that they've always perceived their inability to control their eating as a character defect and not the disease of addiction. Like "if only I were stronger, I wouldn't do this anymore."
At any rate, I know plenty of post-ops who are not food addicts. The ability to eat less was enough to get them in line. My sincerest wish for the future of WLS is to get more synergy going with the psychological community to address the slightly different post-op needs of true food addicts.
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I hope this makes sense and the basic point I'm getting at is the work you start doing NOW on finding yourself happy and stopping the self-defeating thinking will get you there. Get into therapy as soon as you can and really start working on the head stuff now! When food has been a coping mechanism in your life, it's very important to start building up your coping skills library so that the mourning period can be not as traumatic, as you're saying goodbye to that maladaptive habit.
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