I am so sorry you are struggling with this right now, but I am glad you posted. I am very glad I got to read this. There is no cure, this is a life long struggle. We have to keep this fight up forever, but it can be done and you will do it! <3

Sorry your going thru this my friend. You are my hero. You are amazing. You got this my superwoman. I will keep you ub my thoughts and prayers <3

My favorites are the "XX pounds gone FOREVER" - I want to say "oh, honey..."

(( HUGS)). You got this, but rethink the soda. When we see people at support group with regain and struggling, it's almost always people that have gone back to diet sodas. No idea what the connection is, but soda always made me more hungry. Just be careful, but you totally got this and know yourself.

Do what you need to do. You have my number if you need to talk. Love you.

Totally get it... like I said, you know yourself... you've done a lot of work. The reality is that you KNOW that you're messing up and how. That's HUGE, girlfriend. Hang in there... you CAN do this.

Wow...you've practically taken the words out of my mouth. I too am struggling! I had my surgery in 2003 and looking back now it seems I started my downward spiral in 2007 when I first started regaining. The struggle never ends, unfortunately. I see the newbies posts too and wish all the best for them hoping they won't go down the path I seem to be on. I've gain back about 45 lbs after losing 115 lbs after having surgery. I am so unhappy about it! I feel like my mindset is right back where it was when I weighed 298 lbs, at my highest. Trying diet after diet like before. I have my "favorite" binge items which are nothing but empty calories. You're not alone. I go to a weekly OA meeting which helps with support. Feel free to contact me, if you need a buddy. All the best to you!

I'm so sorry that you are going through a personal hell at the moment. However, it is good that you recognize that there is a problem. Knowing what to do, and having the strength to do it are two differnet things. Baggage from the past can be really hard to deal with, of course you know that. I hope you can find that strength down deep to pull yourself out and keep moving forward. I'm here if you need me.

Just sending my love to you. You are a winner pausing to lick some wounds. When I lost with my Band and suddenly became this size 6 woman. I was so terrified. I had to experience all I had been hiding from. It was soooo hard and no one understood what I was going through mostly me. I took some lumps for it too then gain the experience. I never have to do that again. You are experiencing life without the ear plugs. You will adjust and come back stronger than ever. Keep connected even during the screetches (spel). (((HUGS))) Layla

I can totally relate. Hope you get a grip very soon. I just don't understand how some people have surgery and never look back. No matter how wrong it is, I do seem to always go to food as soon as something is stressing me, etc. UGH.

It's always good to read things like this - I am post op 8 weeks, and I KNOW already, that maintenance will be where I will really have to work. It is life long, and it is a journey...I would never claim to "have it" beaten, that's for sure!

I am 4 weeks post op and I think that your experience is the one I want to hear about. You are reality, you are the one letting us know that this is a journey and a struggle that we all have to work at. I appreciate your honesty, so keep posting. I want to see you beat this..because I know you can or you wouldnt have put yourself through surgery. You can do this!!!

My heart is breaking for you. As I sit at 9 months out I realize the struggles. I have these struggles too. It is the battle fought forever. Your raw honesty is so inspiring, I know you can do this. Heres a thought....the closer you get to what you have viewed as perfection (WL/plastics) the harder you are fighting yourself. Go look in the mirror and say "I love you" because we all think your amazing, so should you. Warmest, squeeziest hugs to you.

I'm a couple months behind you and I have days where I wonder "Why the heck am I eating this?" Luckily, I haven't gained weight yet, but I definitely haven't lost much in the past few months, either. I just promise myself that tomorrow will be better, and most of the time, it is. The truth is that addiction is more powerful than we are, at times.