time is just going by too fast. january 5th was my 3 year anniv.

it was not a easy road by all means. ive had my ups and downs. i owe my success to my excellent surgeon dr. b. from long branch. he is an excellent surgeon and made this journey somewhat easy. ive lost 180 lbs and have been able to maintain it with no problems. my eating has increased significantly and i can pretty much eat whatever i want within reason. no problems with food getting stuck and i dont dump on sugar thank god cause my sweet tooth has never left me but a bite or two of desert and im satified. only certain foods give me  little problem but its nothing i have trouble stayin away from like eggs and whole milk. no big deal i can do without them. i keep up my protein as much as possible and take my vitamins faithfully. get my blood checked every six months and i feel overall my health is in decent shape. my only form of physical activity is running around with my very active yorkie. ive never been one for the gym. i hope everyone the best on their journey and im open for any questions anyone might have for me ..i will help in any way i can. happy new year to all my friends here.

well its summer time again here in the lovely state of new joisey. i actually have to update my weight tracker because ive lost a bit more weight. ive been staying steady at 160 for the last 2 months or so. i went to see my pcp today and she took all the blood i had asked if i have been having issues (none thank god) and sent  me on my way with a rx for ambien. ive been having issues sleeping so she gave me some of these to take and told me to get meltonin (over the counter) to see if that will help. i still make my hot protein tea everyday and i can practically eat anything i want without any issues except eggs..eggs are just not ever going to be my friends again and im done trying to re-establish my relationship with them. i dont dump and im very grateful for that because i do like to have a bite or two of dessert. i dont do it often and i literally take no more than two bites out of whatever sweet it is and leave the rest. i started this 1year and 1/2 ago thinking i had done the worst thing i could of ever done to myself and now i sit here grateful that so far ive had no major issues or complications, so very lucky that ive had a full blown support from my family and friends, happy that i have this place to read and learn from and proud of myself for the hard work i put into this journey because i dont care what anyone says this is NOT the easy way out.

where does the time go? anyway this time last year i was having my last thanksgiving dinner with the gang as a "normal" person. i made the whole dinner at my father in laws house. the turkey, gravy, mashed pot, sweet pot..etc etc etc. i loved making feasts like that and then digging in!! i also remember the feeling of complete and utter fullness to the point of not wanting to move too much after eating like that. uncomfortable and sick is what i felt every time i would over indulge like that and those feasts werent limited to special occasions either..oh no seemed like if there was a reason (which i always found one) to over eat then hell i would go for it..hmmm looking back now i can see how i got to almost 300lbs.
i dont miss over eating like that. i dont miss that uncomfortable and sick feeling.
this year i will be making the same feast at my house for the gang. the turkey, gravy, mashed pot etc etc etc will all be made including apple pie and pumkin pie and im looking forward to not only cooking all of it and having the gang together for the day but im looking forward to sitting at the table and having my usual quantity of food that is suitable for me now and when im full (and the hiccups start) i will be happy to put the fork down and be done with it. then when its time for dessert ill be happy with a bite or two of each and be done.

its been 7 months since surgery and this road has sure been with many ups and downs. iv havent written since feb and at that time i was struggling with finding protien that i could tolerate drinking. luckily i found the right stuff that worked for  me and since ive been working my way up with food. total trial and error with food ..some things i can tolerate others i cant. no matter what my intake ive continuously lost weight and im not unhappy with how ive progressed. so much so that i went from a size 24/26 to a size 16 and the first piece of clothing that was that 16 was my wedding dress..thrilled doesnt even come close to describing what i felt. we also went away for the first time since surgery and eating out was a challenge. mostly it went well but i defenitely over did it one night and ate way to much and paid a dear price for that one, however i have no one to blame for that one but myself..i knew exactly when i should of stopped eating and i did  not, but i lived thru it.
we are home now and its back to reality. doing dishes, cooking, working, laundry and taking care of my new husband!!
iv always loved my life..now im just loving my life in a smaller size!