How I am feeling...

Dec 12, 2009

 Well, today is 12/12/09. I am feeling rather nervous and more excited today. I think as the time is getting closer, reality is hitting in that I am really going through with this surgery. Pre-admissions called me from the hospital Thursday to go over everything with me for the 28th. Now it really seems like it is finally going to happen and I am so scared. I have mixed emotions I guess. One of my sisters found out last night (she's an RN) and she is totally against it. I mean she ran down every reason I shouldn't have this done. That I can just lose the weight with diet and exercise. And if I can't do that without the surgery then how do I expect to do it with the surgery. or if I can go on a 10-day liquid diet, then I can just do that. LOL. How crazy is that? I have tried everything. I am so frustrated. I guess I wish other people could understand that this is not an easy decision to make. And that I am not doing this to seek attention. Not to mention the lack of mobility/exercise I am getting now. And how bad I feel physically

I am just very thankful to the Lord for granting me this opportunity to have this done.  I looking forward to transforming my mind, body & spirit!.

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