I Should Be Happy...

Jun 12, 2010

 Today is June 12, 2010.  So much has happened since I last blogged back in March.  My husband, Kevin left me May 2nd, after I finally found out he had been having an affair for the past 7 months (like 2 months prior to my even having surgery). He basically left me stuck with everything, the bills, no transportation, rent, and I am on a limited income from disability.  My dad and sisters aren't really speaking to me either.  I lost my home my mom left me when she passed.  Now I am about to be evicted from the apartment we got since he left me.  All of this while trying to deal with this whole WLS thing.  I can barely eat or drink anything.  I am not sleeping well and cry all the time. I feel so isolated and alone and afraid:(.   Thank God for this couple from my church, Tony & Tracey. They have been letting me stay with them off and on while I grieve and try to figure out what to do. They have been such a blessing and I can't thank them enough.  I am also thankful for my children, my grandson, my Pastor, a few close relatives and friends who have been trying to be encouraging.   I just don't see how I am going to make it through all this.  I have no energy and can barely make it out of the bed each day.  I have to force myself to eat or drink but then when I do, I end up dumping most of the time.  :barf:   The sad thing is I should be happy about losing 90 pounds :scales: so far and enjoying this difficult journey of learning how to eat all over again. But instead I am facing one of the biggest crisis in my life.  God please, if You are really up there, HELP ME!  I truly need extreme divine intervention....Thank you.

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