beccabecca66
Psych Exam
Apr 21, 2010
Today was my psych exam. It was scheduled at 11:00 am. I had a visit with my nurse practitioner earlier in the morning and found out that I had gained 4 pounds. I was devastated. I almost cried in her office. I tried so hard in the month, making better choices each day. I exercised. I drank plenty of fluids. I tracked calories. Even though she assured me it was most likely water weight from not taking my lisinopril and also being out of town eating processed salty foods, I was heartbroken.So when i had to see Dr. Rusch, I was in a poor frame of mind. And talking about what i weighed, when i weighed it, and why i eat so much was awful. Not my idea of a good visit. We talked about my bipolar disorder, and past psych hospitalizations. We talked about medications and therapy. We talked about family history and the environment I grew up in.
In the end, he said I was a good candidate, and added that I had good insight into my illness. He was impressed that I had thought so much about possible complications that may come up regarding my bipolar mania and over exercising. He said my weight goal was realistic. That was something I hadn't talked to the surgeon about. I said I thought I looked good at about 180. Part of me wishes that I could go lower, but I won't expect it. We'll see what happens. In the mean time, I'm going to research people that were at my beginning weight, or close to it, and see where they are now.
My mood is pretty low lately. So much stress going on. I ate too much today. That makes me feel even worse. I wonder what I'm going to do when I don't have the option to overeat to soothe rough days. I wasn't able to go walking today due to pain in my back. I have to get back on my medicines so that i can move more and feel better mood wise.
