debbie13
Lost Enthusiasm
Jul 09, 2012
Yesterday I posted about having gotten somewhere in my discovery of why I ended up regaining. Emotional eating at its best and many self destructive behaviors were the root.
In my zeal of this self awareness I joined Weight Watchers for some assistance. Yeah, don't go there, I already know what you want to say. I bought exercise clothes. Cute outfit and it fits. I may wear it. I got new sneakers. Those I just plain needed. I had enthusiasm. For 10 days, I had it. I did everything I was supposed to do.
Then stuff happened. Brought up bad feelings. Therapist friend unavailable. Most of my saner friends unavailable. Summers suck. People go away. The problemed friends stay home and suffer. I did what I do best. I grazed. For 10 days. It shows.
I now need to undo the regain of the reloss of the regain of the reloss, so forth and so on. I need to find my enthusiasm. Do YOU have some you can share. Maybe you can help me find mine?
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In my zeal of this self awareness I joined Weight Watchers for some assistance. Yeah, don't go there, I already know what you want to say. I bought exercise clothes. Cute outfit and it fits. I may wear it. I got new sneakers. Those I just plain needed. I had enthusiasm. For 10 days, I had it. I did everything I was supposed to do.
Then stuff happened. Brought up bad feelings. Therapist friend unavailable. Most of my saner friends unavailable. Summers suck. People go away. The problemed friends stay home and suffer. I did what I do best. I grazed. For 10 days. It shows.
I now need to undo the regain of the reloss of the regain of the reloss, so forth and so on. I need to find my enthusiasm. Do YOU have some you can share. Maybe you can help me find mine?
Regain - again
Jul 08, 2012
Once again I am trying to face my regain and get it off. With the help of a fantastic therapist friend (insurance won't cover what I need) I have come to a point where I recognized why it happened. Sort of. I always knew when. I could look at the dates when weights were recorded and see the numbers. My friend made me look at life events. Oh fuck. She's a therapist. That's her job. She using her skill on me. Damn. Ok. So I looked.
When I was at my lowest people were telling me I looked sick and that I needed to stop losing. Gee thanks friends. I wasn't at goal but close. Then I did some stupid shit personally. Not going into details but lets just say I am lucky. And then my bariatric surgeon died - suddenly and traumatically. I soothed my soul with food. Every day. Yeah I know, shouldn't do that. But I'm not a drinker. Oh wait, that's not good for you either.
Ok, so, I know the cause. Now to deal with it. Lots of hours burning up the cell phone. Thankfully we are in different time zones and I work nights sometimes. Probably mild PTSD. Lots of tears. Lots of anger. Lots of release of pain.
Am I ready to face the regain? Don't know. Gonna try. Again.
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When I was at my lowest people were telling me I looked sick and that I needed to stop losing. Gee thanks friends. I wasn't at goal but close. Then I did some stupid shit personally. Not going into details but lets just say I am lucky. And then my bariatric surgeon died - suddenly and traumatically. I soothed my soul with food. Every day. Yeah I know, shouldn't do that. But I'm not a drinker. Oh wait, that's not good for you either.
Ok, so, I know the cause. Now to deal with it. Lots of hours burning up the cell phone. Thankfully we are in different time zones and I work nights sometimes. Probably mild PTSD. Lots of tears. Lots of anger. Lots of release of pain.
Am I ready to face the regain? Don't know. Gonna try. Again.
Community Division
Jul 02, 2012
When I first started looking into weight loss surgery, I was very overwhelmed by the information out there. The number of groups and people out there providing information can be daunting. I joined groups and made 'friends' with any one that seemed to have good, sound information. At that time, nearly four years ago, I didn't sense any issues within the 'community'.
Then something changed. I don't know what. But there was a ripple. That ripple caused a crack. There were more ripples. They were getting bigger. The crack became bigger, more like a crevasse in an ice berg. The ripples are more like quakes now and the crack has grown to canyon of grand proportions.
Why? Someone tell me why grown adults with the common goal of educating and supporting have to be so nasty to each other. We have opinions. We are entitled to them. We should be able to share that opinion without being called wrong or nasty names. Our differences in opinion should open constructive conversation, not lead to physical altercations.
I have learned so much from the 'leaders' of this community. Bloggers, mostly. All from different walks of life. All with something to share. Do I agree with everything that each and every one of them has had to say? No. But I remain respectful of them. I generally refrain comment. I'll leave that to those that want the ensuing drama.
Me? I am going to continue to be part of the many groups I belong to. I've got a few that I am really active in because of the great support. Some I just stay in so I can be entertained. Others are for recipes. Some for crafts. I think there may be a pet one or two. All of the groups I am in, regardless of content, are on my list because of my looking for info on WLS. And I am going to stay in all of them. No one better be judging me for the groups I am in.
Oh, BTW - the post engagement break-up regain is gone!!!!! Go me!
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Then something changed. I don't know what. But there was a ripple. That ripple caused a crack. There were more ripples. They were getting bigger. The crack became bigger, more like a crevasse in an ice berg. The ripples are more like quakes now and the crack has grown to canyon of grand proportions.
Why? Someone tell me why grown adults with the common goal of educating and supporting have to be so nasty to each other. We have opinions. We are entitled to them. We should be able to share that opinion without being called wrong or nasty names. Our differences in opinion should open constructive conversation, not lead to physical altercations.
I have learned so much from the 'leaders' of this community. Bloggers, mostly. All from different walks of life. All with something to share. Do I agree with everything that each and every one of them has had to say? No. But I remain respectful of them. I generally refrain comment. I'll leave that to those that want the ensuing drama.
Me? I am going to continue to be part of the many groups I belong to. I've got a few that I am really active in because of the great support. Some I just stay in so I can be entertained. Others are for recipes. Some for crafts. I think there may be a pet one or two. All of the groups I am in, regardless of content, are on my list because of my looking for info on WLS. And I am going to stay in all of them. No one better be judging me for the groups I am in.
Oh, BTW - the post engagement break-up regain is gone!!!!! Go me!
About Me
Cossayuna, NY
Location
33.5
BMI
Surgery
03/30/2009
Surgery Date
Jan 29, 2009
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