Reaching Goal part 2

May 30, 2011

Last night I was looking at my stats and realized I have not lost any weight since April 6 - almost 2 months!!  Ugh!  Am I done?  Can I lose 10 more pounds to reach my ultimate goal?  My weight is still fluctuating on a daily basis.  Last week Monday it was 135 and yesterday it was up to 138.8 (YIKES)!  I know I have not done anything differently and I know it is water weight but it still freaks me out when I see that on the scale.  It looks like I gained 4 pounds in 5 days.  Now I know this is not physically possible but it still worries me.  

I know part of my problem is I've been constipated.  I've been taking colace and benefiber and it is getting better but still having issues.  I also know that I've been carbing a bit too much.  We went to Seattle on Saturday and I had some carmel popcorn.  We also went to Spaghetti Factory for dinner and I had the meatloaf with a couple bites of spaghetti.  Not bad but I really need to get back to a more healthy eating pattern.  

I wrote out my goals 2 weeks ago and I haven't really followed them.  I'm going to do better this week to keep within those guidelines.  I'm going to cut out the sweets and junky stuff and work to carb detox so I can get these last few pounds off.  

One thing I've noticed is that I have body image dysmorphia.  I know I've lost weight.  I know I look better then I have in years but when I look in the mirror I still see that fat girl.  I just can't get my head to realize that I've lost 70 pounds.  I've gone from a size 18 to a size 6!  Me!  In a size 6!!  But when I look in the mirror all I see is the flabby belly and flabby thighs.  

Well, today is a new day and while we are having friends over, I plan on doing much better with my eating.  

Have a wonderful Memoria Day!

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