Re-Post: Five Months Out

Jan 29, 2013

(I'm doing a lot of introspection and looking back as I approach my 4th Surgiversary on February 25th, 2013.  My, how things change!  To the DS newbies: some of you will have dramatic changes in your life because of your weight loss - inside and out.  Others will not.  Dramatic weight loss from the DS can *work* magic for some people, but * do not* expect the fairy-tale happy ending to be automatic.  This is especially a danger for those of us who have been told all our lives that our weight was the only thing holding us back.  That was my experience. As you'll see from the repost below, I was full of hope after losing my first 100 pounds.  I have lost 245 pounds, my weight is stable and as for the hopes and dreams, well, they seem to have evaporated into formerly fat air.)

July 8, 2009

You may think this is about conceit.  It is not.  It’s about reclaiming what is mine.

Through the years, my self-esteem has taken innumerable hits. 

"You have such a pretty face...if you just lost some weight...."

"You're OK on the top half"

"If you lost some weight, you could do TV news" (This one from a former boss)

But, being within less than a pound of achieving my first weight loss goal of 100 pounds, my self-esteem is definitely on the rise.

Ironically, some of the comments have reversed-

"Don't let your face get too skinny"

"Don't lose too much"

"Maybe you can have that TV news career after all"
(This one was from a family member - who always wanted to see me on TV!)

The only sorrow that I feel now is for those people who never took the time to know me, love me or treat me fairly and with dignity before my body changes became apparent.

They're the real losers

The only person I see reflecting back from my mirror now is a  winner!


I love me some Jazzbabe!

 

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