Comtemplation

Feb 08, 2012

I am contemplating, and have discussed doing the 5 day pouch test.  In my mind it boils down to condensing my post op diet into 5 days.  Supposedly it helps you get over the carb cravings, and stop the constant snacking.  I am not 100% convinced that will be the case, but I do want to jump start losing again.

Last night I finally told my husband about my hair brained idea.  He seemed a bit skeptical, and asked why I was so focused on losing again.  That stopped me in my tracks.  WHY AM I SO FOCUSED ON LOSING?  And why so I have to set my loss goal so high?  I say I want to get down to 175 on my tracker, but honestly, losing 10-15 pounds at this point would make my clothes fit better, and make me more comfortable.  I didn't voice that to him because it took me writing this post to truly delve in to why I am not content where I am.

I know I will never be a picture perfect Victoria's Secret model.  BUT, I was much more comfortable in my skin when I was between 180 and 190.  So that is my goal.  1st to get back to 190.  Then to get back to 180 and stay in a holding pattern. 

Truthfully I am not waiting to begin my pouch test, every day this week I have brought my lunch, and protein filled snacks each day.  And rather than reaching for a snack I think about whether or not I've had enough water, and start there.  Baby steps. 

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