Jenci S.
I am the mommy of two little boys, Lucas (5 years old), and William (2 years old), and the wife of a fantastic, supportive, loving man, Kelly. I had RNY because I want to be a mom my boys can be proud of, inside and out! I don't want my sons to be teased because I am fat. Also, I want more energy, and drive, I want to be able to keep up with my family!
I have been heavy my entire life. I remember a girl in junior high saying "you have the biggest calves I have ever seen!" JUNIOR HIGH! For the past 5 years I have been kidding myself into thinking "Oh, I am not that big, I am fine." Or, "I do my hair, and makeup, I dress nicely for a girl my size." and convinced myself that was enough. But everytime someone in my office talked about weight loss, or their new workout routine I would make an excuse to use the restroom. Or we would have food out, and I would sneak stuff when no one was looking, and eat constantly. I was a hider! I would grab, hide, and eat when no one was looking.
A friend of ours had RNY surgery in late 2008, and I saw her change over the next year. She became more confident, and the "real" Erica came out. Then my son's grandma told me she was having the surgery, and honestly, I never thought she was that big, but each time we saw her the weight melted off!! I was amazed, and I started looking into having surgery myself. Found a surgeon I trusted, and took a leap of faith!
I have tried diet after diet, and my main problem was continuing the mental battle in my head. I am still batteling that voice, but now I have an extra tool that reminds me not to overindulge, and will hopefully help to train my brain on what a healthy portion is for me.