A catch up of sorts.

Nov 13, 2014

Well, several years have past. I must admit, the stresses of life can be so intense sometimes. I won't lie, I don't take care of my body hardly at all when I go through the very rough patches in life.

I certainly wont go through the grueling details, but it seems like I am finally climbing up the hill again, instead of aimlessly sliding down. My bad habits from 2010 till now consisted of, sneaking food on the way home in the car. Ice Cream, fast foods, high calorie drinks, and getting rid of the evidence before returning home. I also would most times eat at home with the family in the evening as well! I was stretching my pouch out above the band slowly over time. I quit weighing myself, I quit looking in full length mirrors, or taking full body shot pictures. ( I am an expert cropper) I noticed the seat belt in the car was snug again, and yes... 2X and 3X clothes were entering my wardrobe again.

All my fault, no one to blame. And that's what breaks my heart the most. I did this to me. I stopped using and taking care of my tool, The Lap Band.

So no more beating myself up. Can not change it. Done is done.

Seemed like from the get go I was a difficult stick, my Dr. and the nurses had the hardest time with my fills. It went on for many years, the needle would be on the port, but never in the bulls eye to fill, or unfill. My visits dwindled away, and so did my accountability. I stopped going to support group, I always had an excuse. 

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