Jennifer S.

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I'm home now, resting, for several days off work. The replacement port is in, with some mesh to give it stability. I believe and am claiming this as a new fresh start. I lost 8 lbs prior to the surgery, it took 8 weeks, but I am on track. Gradually omitting the harmful stuff. I quit sodas, straws, drinking during a meal. carbs little to none. Meats first.. all getting back to the basics. 

So as I heal from this, I intend to check in here. Hopefully to connect again. I wonder if any of my old contacts are still out here. This site was a huge support for me in the beginning. 

Well, several years have past. I must admit, the stresses of life can be so intense sometimes. I won't lie, I don't take care of my body hardly at all when I go through the very rough patches in life.

I certainly wont go through the grueling details, but it seems like I am finally climbing up the hill again, instead of aimlessly sliding down. My bad habits from 2010 till now consisted of, sneaking food on the way home in the car. Ice Cream, fast foods, high calorie drinks, and getting rid of the evidence before returning home. I also would most times eat at home with the family in the evening as well! I was stretching my pouch out above the band slowly over time. I quit weighing myself, I quit looking in full length mirrors, or taking full body shot pictures. ( I am an expert cropper) I noticed the seat belt in the car was snug again, and yes... 2X and 3X clothes were entering my wardrobe again.

All my fault, no one to blame. And that's what breaks my heart the most. I did this to me. I stopped using and taking care of my tool, The Lap Band.

So no more beating myself up. Can not change it. Done is done.

Seemed like from the get go I was a difficult stick, my Dr. and the nurses had the hardest time with my fills. It went on for many years, the needle would be on the port, but never in the bulls eye to fill, or unfill. My visits dwindled away, and so did my accountability. I stopped going to support group, I always had an excuse. 

I really enjoy using the Noom app I found in Google play on my phone, I log my meals, count my calories, I need to exercise ( my back is killing me these days though...) It has a pedometer.. I am setting step goals there. It sends me articles on healthy eating, and fitness tips. So so far it has made me realize my safe portion controls again. So really when I felt like enough was enough I was creeping on 220 ! I'm sitting on 215 now. I must continue. I turn 40 in 8 days. Ugh. LOL. 

Going to really try and log in out here more often, This site was so helpful in the begining and no doubt when I stopped I lost track of things.  

 depressing , keep gaining, . 20 lbs from my pre op weight. Just wondering if I have it in me to try this all over again.

It was nice while it lasted.. offically 201 lbs. today.. big, fat, and depressed I can't seem to shake it. Eating poorly, and wish I could have back what I had. Cried all day .. clothes do not  fit. very bummed out today. 

For the past year or so I have always had on and off shoulder pain. Well, I had a variety of possible reasons I thought why.
My Dad and brother both had ACD & F 's done on there cervical spines. They had painful shoulders and necks. The job I have requires a lot of physical stresses. And so I sought out the help of a chiropractor. So for about the last few weeks I have been going. Neck and shoulder pain still on and off . No relief. So it was after a meal at a steakhouse. I ate a small amount of steak and a baked potato and 15 min. after I am crying on the way home. Then it hit my husband. Could it be something to do with the band? He asked me. I wasn't sure. So I got on the message board and searched the question. Sure enough, many others experiencing my pain. Could it be the band? I wondered. So I have an appointment to see my surgeon and I can't wait to see what he thinks. I even thought .. could it be gallbladder? So who knows , guess I wish House was a real live person, next door I could take it too. LOL !  So I am ready to be pain free and get back to my fun activities like gardening I can hardly bend over when the pain kicks in, and running.. I hope anyone who reads this blog ..if you have any comments please feel free to post'm ok? Thanks. Need the encouragement. 

Just got back from a run 2 miles 22 min. So glad to still be running just wish I could do it more than once a week.
I hang around 178- 182 depending on my water intake. Water is my downfall as well. wish I could keep up with that too. I have been keeping up with my Benefiber every day I cannot live without it now ! 
My band it always telling me to stop and lately I want to push it just a bit. I am blogging this to give me some accountability. It's something I know we all struggle with , I mean if I am I know y'all are. So for me here.... WAKE UP JEN USE YOUR TOOL CORRECTLY!!!!
Happy Memorial Day . Freedom is precious. Thank you for the sacrifice all men and women and families of our great nation, in all uniforms~

 Well due to hectic schedules I can say I shrunk my pouch back. I have cut down on portions and have noticed over time I reach a stopping point much sooner, and restriction is back. I am drinking more H2O  and exercising again.. feeling back on track.
Warmer weather is encouraging too. I was hoping it would be. Running my 2 miles again, started a Zumba class, so I just wanted to blog it since I had the time.. I really need to get out here more often I love this community! We are never alone when we are checking in here.. I really attribute my initial sucsess to this site since I was the first one to have this surgery in my community, and many resources were not available to me ., but this one was.. thanks OH and everyone who takes time to help out once in a while with the newbies...   two more weeks till my 2 year Banderversary !
181 lbs today !
16 pants/dress size(was a 22W)
Large shirts( I  was a 3X)
8 1/2 shoe ( I was a 9 1/2   10 shoe pre op)  I Love my Band !!!!

Okay.. I'm 15 lbs. up from Dec. last year.. why? Because I became complacent, too comfortable, and caloric intake up, and exercise went way down.. new year coming and I will continue on a better path.. commitments are being made and dedication will take hold right here!! right now !!!