Jennifer A.
My Pouch is PSYCHO
Sep 02, 2011
So I've been stressing out lately. When things first happened with my mom a few weeks ago, I was so upset I couldn't eat much. Every time I ate I'd either cry or just feel sick. Well, she is stable now, going through radiation, and living at my sister's house. Seeing as my sister is taking such good care of her, my mom is happier than she has been in years. All of this has given me peace of mind...FOR NOW. In addition to all of that, I am now in my busy season at work (grape harvest) and am working 6 days/60+ hours a week. Yesterday I worked a 14 hour shift. My point being...I'm starving ALL THE TIME. It drives me insane!! Regardless of what I eat, I'm hungry an hour or two later. The other day I was super stressed and gave into my old habits (stress/emotion eating). I'm think throughout the day I easily ate 2,000 calories..... I was so depressed that night. Yesterday I ate a million times better (although I was still hungry all day) but was already at 1,000 calories by the time I left work. I didn't leave work until 8pm so I stopped at Taco Bell on the way home, to get the kids dinner. BAD IDEA. I hate half a chicken soft taco and half a nacho supreme. Mindless eating. Plopped down in front of the tv and ate away. When I realized how much I had eaten, I went through the "Oh God my pouch is stretched out" panic. Honestly though, it physically hurt so I went to bed shortly after. Through all this my weight has been stalled for the past couple of weeks. It doesn't help that I've been skipping the gym because of my work hours (I do walk ALOT at work though). I decided to weigh myself this morning, own up to my idiotic eating behaviors and guess what...I'm down 3 pounds!!! CRAZY! It made me laugh......Today I am going to start writing everything down and measuring. Although I ate too many calories yesterday, I upped my protein big time which may explain the loss. I have no clue anymore. What scares me is knowing that my bad habits are still there, waiting for the day when the "magic" of my RNY has worn off. I don't want to be one of the masses that regain :(
