Jennbawa
10 Months Out.. Long Overdue Update :)
Feb 23, 2010
Well well well.. greetings to anyone who still reads these!! haha.. Hope it finds you doing well! It's funny how as this progresses, sense of time seems to go out the window and I forget to come onto this site.. :( ok.. it's not funny, I should definitely be staying more active on here.. it's definitely been a major support though all this!
So last time I wrote was in October, before Halloween. Halloween was a blast, I was so excited to actually get to dress up and it felt good to feel comfortable doing it!!! At this point, 10 months out, I am down 125 lbs! I weigh 164 and am still in shock that I am actually below 200 and that I can fit in a size 10 (sometimes a size 8!!) jeans!! Don't even remember the last time I was fitting in those sizes, if EVER!! It's a surreal feeling! I feel absolutely normal now.. which is AMAZING.. even though I have another 25 or so to lose, it's just so great to not be uncomfortable when I go out in public!!
Let's see.. the holidays weren't that hard with me on the food aspect.. I've been really good about staying at 14 grams of sugar per sitting and I refuse to even try to eat things that I shouldn't on the sugar side of things (ie: cookies, baked goods, ice cream, etc.) I won't even go there! I just know myself and if I did, and if I found out I'm one of those people who doesn't get sick, I would have lost the control aspect of it all and I would start sneaking things in here and there.. so yeah.. not even going there! lol
The weight really has come to a SLOWWW roll at this point, I don't mind it though, since it's still going down or staying the same... it's good to know that it is still working it's way off.
I have noticed the ability to eat more in terms of quantity and I always have to check myself when I notice I'm eating too much. Our nurse had told us that the pouch would not stretch, even though there are rumors it does, and so she basically said it's ok to eat until you feel full.. WELLL.. one of the local surgeons came into our group meeting a month or so ago and he said that although the pouch does not stretch, you can stretch the organs around the stomach (the tube that leads into the stomach.. and no, I don't know the name of it, and this sounds pretty retarded since I don't.. haha.. but go with me here).. ;) So he said that when you eat more then the stomach will allow, the food builds up in the tube above the stomach, causing that to stretch and that can be really bad for you. He said that if we're able to put down more then half a sandwich size of food, then we're probably stretching that outter area.. which was something I needed to hear because I think sometimes I was pushing that! So now I've been very careful on quanity.. I've been really trying to eat slower and notice those signs that I'm getting "full".. it's hard to train myself to do that, where before the surgery I would eat so fast and then just be absolutely MISERABLE when my stomach would be tossing and turning and hating me for all the food I just crammed into it. There's definitely a feeling I get when my tummy is starting to get to a full point.. it's just a matter of listening to it and stop eating. lol
As for everything else.. my body structure is starting to worry me.. I don't think I was built to be super thin.. I have broad shoulders and my ribs are whacky and stick out a LOT.. so I've noticed as I'm thinning out, that my upper body is very awkward.. my boobs are pretty much gone, so if I'm laying on my back, all I notice is my huge ribcage sticking up.. haha.. it's not a happy time in that area. And even though I'm in a size 10/8, I've noticed that my hip bones are like right there.. so I don't see myself being ever able to get into smaller sizes because of the bone structure limitations.. most of my excess weight now is in my thighs, rear and arms.. so hopefully my body will start pin pointing those areas and take some more off there! haha.. On a side note though, I LOVEEE shopping now and am so excited I fit in Juniors size clothes, so excited to shop at NORMAL stores!!! And even fit in a size Medium shirt in some cases, which is just a jaw dropper to me.. Thin feels SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!!! I don't think anyone appreciates it as much as those of us who have been on the other side of that spectrum.. I know I've mentioned it before, but I truly believe that some thin people should be forced to live a day in the shoes we once wore.. I am still appalled at how much nicer people are to me now.. it saddens me how cruel and cold people are to those who are overweight. Not everyone.. but MANY people. Just a typical visit to the store or a Starbucks is such a huge difference.. and maybe it's partly because I have confidence now, where before I had none.. but yeah.. people are just so much nicer. Really has opened my eyes and I have told myself I will never do that to people who are larger then me.
I have still been terrible at exercising.. I did start doing a Tae Bo video last week and I must admit that I was surprised at how easy it was for me to do it without breaking too much of a sweat and it felt good afterwards! :D Then I got a nasty cold and have been recouping, so I haven't done it.. :( Hoping when I feel better I will push myself to do it again.. it was nice!
Trying to think if there's anything else?? OHhhh! I went to Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk and was able to go on ANY ride I wanted.. that was a great feeling! And on the one big roller coaster they have, I was actually flying up in my seat at some points and I have never felt so damn LIGHT!! hahaha.. it was awesome!
All in all, I am extremely happy with everything this surgery has done for me, I am extremely blessed that there have been no complications (knock on wood) like some people have and I am in such a great place right now! I LOVE life and am so happy to have made the decision to make my life better for me and my kids!
Now I just cannot wait for Spring and Summer!! It's going to be so nice to go out and do things without my weight bringing me down!!
Anywho.. sorry so long winded.. thanks for taking the time to read if you did! ;) Take care and hope everything is going great for all of you out there!!
