Jennbawa
Just an Update =)
Jul 10, 2009
Well hellooo everyone! Hope this finds you all doing well!! I just wanted to update because I haven't written anything with much detail or substance (interesting substance) lately.. not to say this will have any "interesting substance", I cannot promise anything.. lol. But I hit a nice little landmark a week or so back (and as you know me and my plateau's, I'm STILL there.. ) BUT.. it's still a good thing.. I've officially lost 50 lbs!
That's like 1/3 of how much I need to lose.. not too shabby.. I'm happy with it. I have been stuck on this plateau now for about 2 weeks.. but I've gotten used to the plateaus now and am kind of just not letting them get to me. I have not been exercising like I should because of time restraints and my back.. or maybe I'm just making excuses? I'm not quite sure.. my back literally makes me just want to not move.. which I know is terrible.. So, regardless.. I think if I was exercising more, then these plateaus would be less. I did figure out that I can still take my Nuerontin (pills to help with nerve pain) and that they no longer get "stuck" at my stomach (which was painful) until they disolved!! (a big thank you to my new friend Chris for reminding me about that pill!). So, I've taken it 2 days and we'll see if it helps my back soon.. (it takes a few days to get into the system and start working).. I really do hope so, then I won't have that as an excuse!!!
As for everything else.. I am basically able to eat all meats, veggies and fruits.. I do not have more then 14 grams of sugar in a sitting and I stay away from bad carbs. I do once in a while mingle in some whole grain rice with protein and veggies.. usually only eat about 2 tablespoons of rice if I do incorporate it. I also eat whole wheat toast now.. usually with some turkey sausage and american cheese in between.. dipped in some ketchup.. mm.. yes I'm strange.. lol. I have also had tuna sandwich on whole wheat toast. Other then that, I usually drink one cup or more of milk a day to up my protein.. I have gotten really tired of protein drinks (and the price of them).. lol. Anyhow.. I won't go into any more detail then that, but I think I'm doing ok. I don't count my calories (and I'm sure I'm not going over 900) but I just don't count.. and I probably should. I do still try to get 40-50 grams of protein a day and I thought I was getting 64 oz of water/liquid a day but for some reason (I'm a
) I was only getting about 48.. I totally calculated wrong somewhere .. sooooo I'm trying very hard to up my water intake. I find it's REALLY hard to get the meals in and the water especially since I have to wait 30 minutes between eating and drinking.. and then I can't chug the water anymore.. so yeah.. it's a pain to get everything in.. I feel like I constantly have to be conciously making the effort to eat and drink.. lol. I'm still not craving anything bad.. which is AMAZING.. I DID, however, have this dream a few weeks ago that I was sitting and eating an ENTIRE Banana Cream Pie!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG.. in my dream it was SO good.. and then it hit me in the dream that I wasn't supposed to be eating it and I was freaking out.. I woke up with my heart racing and feeling totally like I defeated myself.. it was very real. I think it's my subconcious getting revenge on me for doing this.. I don't think I have a happy subconcious right now.. lol.
I will say that my self confidence is doing good, I feel so much better.. I don't feel like I need to hide in a corner everywhere I go.. I am happier!! The other day I was talking to a friend of mine in Southern California (who I haven't seen or talked to since before the surgery) and he stopped me to tell me how extremely happy I sound and he said he was amazed at how positive my voice is. Confidence works in mysterious ways. I still have a LOT of weight to go.. I look at myself now and laugh because I'm still BIG... but I am down to a weight that I haven't been in 5+ years.. so it still feels good. I am officially in a size 20 (and they're starting to get a wee bit loose).. I have a TON of clothes I need to get rid of.. I started this journey at size 26, squeezing into a 24 to convince myself I was not a 26.. lol. I am going on vacation in about 8 days and I was really hoping to be in an 18 by that time, but I don't think it's going to happen. but that's alright..
ok.. I think that's enough.. I never know what to write about and feel like I'm being repetative with these blogs.. Just so everyone knows though, I'm always here if any of you have questions (like the newbies)
.. or just anyone in general. I have actually felt at times like I never had any proceedure done.. since I never get sick.. it's a strange feeling.. but then I'm never worried about shovelling food in my face anymore, so that's a reminder that I did indeed have the surgery.. I guess what I'm saying is that I expected there to be all kinds of things to blog about after I had it done, but I find that time just drags on as I slowly lose the weight.. and nothing really exciting happens other then the weight loss.. what was I thinking? lol.. I'm tired, I don't know if I'm making any sense.. lol...
Alright.. take care all.. OH.. and if anyone is going to the support group tomorrow (in Concord) and you need any clothes, size 22/24/26.. let me know.. I am considering taking some to the group. OR if you're local to me and need clothes in those size, write me!!!
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About Me
Concord, CA
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26.0
BMI
Surgery
04/21/2009
Surgery Date
Apr 08, 2009
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