jillian_amari
3rd day Pre-Op diet
May 06, 2010
Thursday May 6, 2010Yeah soooo I was right this sucks, and I have been a short tempered spaz case with my husband too. I have been waking up, taking all of my supplements, making a protein shake, going to work, starving all day, then coming home changing, gym and by the time I am done I have just had it with the freaking world. I work at Verizon and my job is to sell products to and take billing calls from unsatisfied customers all day long. I am very short fused and am really hoping this gets easier. I went to the hospital today for my PAT so I could have an ekg and some blood work and preregister and all that fun stuff. While I was there they told me I needed to have a medical proxy and that they recommend I write a will. I gotta tell ya as a 26 year old girl that was not fun. I came home and thought about so called "assets" I have and who I would want them to go to. It was very weird. Even weirder part is that I emailed it to my mom so she could proof read it before I take it to have it notarized. That's probably gonna be hard for her to hear her daughter's last wishes if she dies? I was thinking after I wrote that I may want to write a letter to a few select people to say anything I would want them to know if I died? This is all very strange to me, dying is not really something I ever considered to be an option but the hospital encourages you to think about it lol I just find that kind of creepy, in fact it gives me chills. I guess better to be safe than sorry. Just a precaution, but it is still really weird. On the bright side I met with the anesthesiologist and that went well. He laughed at me when I asked him about people under anesthesia who are still "awake". I saw something on the news about it last week, people who get put under but can still hear and feel everything that is going on during surgery. Not sure why but that kind of hit me too.... god that would be the worst thing ever. He said it happens to like 1% of people in the US yearly and that I have better odds of being struck by lightning so that made me feel better.
Other than the constant irritability, I am a little bit physically tired. I haven't had a coffee or soda in 3 days and it might just be my body detoxing from the caffeine. I just feel a little bit lightheaded and weak sometimes. Today I had off from work though so after the hospital I came home and decided to give myself a break. I am not doing a single thing for the rest of the night. Just relaxing!!! Brian my husband has school until 9pm so its a good night to do it.
I gotta laugh last night I was arguing with Brian and he told me I am psycho and not ready for the surgery and that I am being a bitch just because I can't eat. He said I want everyone else to be miserable just because I am right now......
maybe he was right.... I guess this is the part of the process where we start to have doubts. I haven't had any yet but maybe he did for me? IDK I just hope we get through the next 12 days without killing each other. He really is a great husband and he is super supportive but I tend to take any/all of my frustrations out on him because he is the only one around I feel better at the time, but then later when I see how much it effects him I feel like an ass. I am lucky to have him, He definitely keeps me in check. I like that about him, he doesn't let me walk all over him. If I give him shit he gives it back tenfold.
KKKK well all that writing made me feel better. I am going to go take a nap.
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About Me
Revere, MA
Location
25.9
BMI
Surgery
05/18/2010
Surgery Date
Jan 12, 2010
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