IT'S OFFICIAL!!

Jan 26, 2010

It is official people!!!

My surgery date is set for 02/15/2010!

It is so hard to believe.  Sometimes I get scared and wonder if I am making the right decision.  Is it normal to have doubts?

I have slowly told people.  I told my mother-in-law first since I felt that she would be the most supportive.  Then I told my sister and I think she is still in shock.  My mom is the same.  They both thought that I was kidding and expressed their concerns that I really did not need it.

But they don't know what it is like to live in this body.  They don't know what it is like to have been fat all of their life and always be referred to as "husky".  I look at pictures and I don't like what I see.  I need to do this.  I feel that it is my last hope and I am willing to do the hard work and I know exactly what I am giving up.

I have yet to tell anyone at work.  On one hand, I feel it is none of their business.  What do they care if I decide to have this surgery.  On the other hand, I am somewhat scared because I am not sure how I will be able to explain all of the sudden weight loss.  Anyway, I will deal with it soon enough.

As for my surgery, I am now counting down the days and I am ordering my meds and my proteins and getting things ready.  I am doing lots of research but I know it is what I want. 

Wish me luck!

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