The Journey Has Begun

May 21, 2013

Day One of Optifast almost complete. I'm dizzy (have been since my mega-pig-out yesterday) and a little hungry. It's just about time for my last Optifast of the day. Still have about a quart of water to drink. I'm hungry. I'd love an orange. Who cares. Hunger pains are positively NOTHING compared to emotional pain. 

I took all my measurements today and entered them into my Health Tracker. Some of them were estimates since the measuring tape only went to 60. Yes, my hips and my chest are MORE THAN FIVE FEET AROUND. 

Funny, i don't think i look THAT bad. But I know when I'm smaller, I'll look at my before pics and want to hide my face in shame.

No pics of me at 402, my highest weight. I can't even believe I weighed that much. No wonder I couldn't bathe myself or dress myself or fit in the car or even walk. i couldn't fit into my wheelchair or my desk chair. i couldn't get up off the couch. No wonder my ex-husband ran like hell. (sigh).

I will never be that big again. I will never be THIS big again.

God is good. 

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