She'll Be Comin' 'Round the Mountain

Jun 15, 2013

Okay i'm really tense and nervous now. Surgery is on Tuesday. Tomorrow is my last day of Optifast, then clear liqs for a day and bowel prep Monday night and BOOM there it IS. 

I feel faint and clammy and i wish i had a xanax or two. 

My weight was 298 two days ago, 299 yesterday, back to 298 today. That's okay. I'm on this train and I'm not going to get off track.

Today I took Charita to the food pantry so she'd have some food here for when she house-sits and cat-sits for me. Of course all the food is stashed here so her family won't eat it. Besides fresh salad and apples and chopped meat of course she got about 10 bags of starburts and skittles and 2 bags of donuts and a bar of Lindt milk chocolate with hazelnuts and raisins (my fave) and three boxes of Russel Stover chocolates (the chewy/nutty/crispy ones! also my faves). 

My mouth is watering but i'm sticking to my Optifast, SF popsicles and SF jello. 

Can't wait for the weight to go down more. I can't wait to go clothes shopping at a thrift store!

i can't wait for my life to begin...again.

thank God for this opportunity, and this freedom from my addiction. I have to pray for it to be new every day. He has removed the yoke of addiction from me. I cannot and will not pick it up and put it back on.

It's within reach. 

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