2nd Day on Optifast

May 22, 2013

I'm so hungry! 

Had a dream last night that I was hungry and someone gave me 1/2 a banana and i was about to eat it and at the last minute i realized NO i'm on Optifast! I remember having those dreams when I did Optifast in the past. I was obsessed with food back then. I need to remove myself from food. It's been more than my addiction, i have a blog, i collect recipes, i'm a "foodie". most "foodies" aren't 400 lbs, though. I need to move on and leave it behind. My favorite tv shows can no longer be Top Chef and Iron Chef and Chopped. I need to find some new hobbies. Hopefully I'll be able to start exercising soon, that could be my new obsession! i wouldn't mind being addicted to that.

Damn, I'm hungry. But it will pass. Eventually. If only I could get out of the house maybe get my mind off food. It's still too soon and too hard to get around. Maybe another 20 lbs and I can go out, maybe to the beach. If only I had gas money.

Nothing is easy. 

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