Surgery Was Hell

Jul 09, 2013

Surgery was so long ago already...but i was so so so sick that i just couldn't even imagine trying to document. I'll try to put it together now. I remember going into the OR, and that's all I remember. No counting, no anyone talking to me, just boom, out, and awake in recovery. I remember being given Morphine for pain by a male nurse. Then i was in my room on the 2nd floor. 

 

Minimal pain, just general discomfort. Foley. Legs in those blow up massage thingies. Couldn't breathe laying down, felt like my diaphragm had no where to go. Sucking on ice chips.

After 2 days, i was started on clear liquids. Big mistake. I kind of forgot that i wouldn't be able to take more than a few sips. I ordered a full tray of broth, and jello, and juice and herbal tea...drank the juice pretty quickly and that was it. I then proceeded to vomit non-stop for about 3 days. 

Some of the nurses were Okay. Jamil, a male LPN from Pakistan, was the best. Gianni, a six-foot-four brazilian was a bitch on wheels. 

i was so sick i just wanted to die. Finally my Doc changed my nausea med and Jamil suggested Ativan and i started to improve. Spent a week in the hospital, afraid to go home but didn't want to stay.

Home was worse. So weak, unable to even keep water down...so restless, so nauseous.

Still almost 16 lbs more than i was before the surgery. Wondering if i had made a mistake. If i had known how sick i would be, how bad it was, i never would have had the guts to do it.

I had diarrhea all over my bed and bathroom, and no one, of course, to help me.

Vomitted all over the kitchen.

no clean clothes

miserable miserable miserable

but finally the past few days have been getting better.

Saw the surgeon, he took the staples out. I stopped draining from that bottom incision, so no more need for the "belly diaper".

Not really nauseous, i still puke a bit, nothing major. I'm on full liquids, but just can get down a few spoonfuls of yogurt or applesauce, or maybe 1/2 of a protein drink a day. i'm working on just getting fluids in, period.

So weak now that i can barely stand. Don't even have the strength to watch tv. i spend all day laying in bed, dozing on and off. 

Going for bloodwork on thursday if i can make it to the lab. I'm thinking i'm badly anemic and need another transfusion.

Now that i'm not scared of transfusions anymore, i would welcome one now if it would give me some strength.

Meanwhile....

my body is a wonderland.

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