Carrie T.
Psych eval, urodynamics, good times, and bad.
Sep 06, 2012
I was going to type this up yesterday, but I was so tired and my head hurt so much I went to bed early instead.
Yesterday, I got up at 5AM. I showered and dressed, then grabbed a Pop Tart and headed out the door. My mom had given me some money so I went to the bank to deposit it into my account. I swung by Mary's house to pick her up and we headed to Greenville.
She had brought some coffee out for me and I was so thankful to have it. I was only able to eat 1 of the Pop Tarts that was in the pack because I was so nervous. I gave the other one to Mary.
We got to our first stop which was ECU Physicians Outpatient Psychiatrist for my psych eval. I took a picture of the lobby while waiting:
The interview process took 2 hours. I had to give the guy my ENTIRE history! It was so annoying. I was hoping he would immediately release my records, but he said that I have to see my person psychiatrist and psychologist and discuss with them what he discussed with me. Thankfully I already have an appointment with my psychiatrist next Tuesday. I set up an appointment for my psychologist for the 19th.
The only thing that bothered me about this guy was the fact that he told me that my weight loss goals are unrealistic. I didn't make up my weight loss goals. My surgeon told me how much weight I'd lose after my surgery. I'd love to get back down to 120 like I was before I gained weight, but I knew that would be impossible. I even voiced that to my surgeon, so he said that most people my size and height who really stick to the diet and exercise program will get below 200 pounds, but he believes that I'll be between 150-160. I'm happy with that. Shit, I'm happy getting below 200! This psychiatrist guy said that that's unrealistic and that I'll never be below 250 pounds. I told him I thought that was bullshit and that I trusted the words of my surgeon. Especially considering that my surgeon has been performing these surgeries since the 80's. He performs 2 or 3 a DAY. He's one of the best weight loss surgeons in the NATION! He should know what he's talking about. Hopefully, I'll one day be able to strut in front of that psychiatrist weighing only 150 pounds! haha!
After we left there, it was time for lunch. Mary wanted Thai food so we went to Lemon Grass. She got the Pad Woon Sen (chicken with glass noodles). I got the appetizer size Pla Muk Tod Calamari:
When we left there, we still had an hour left before my appointment at the urologist. Mary suggested we go to Starbucks. We both got pumpkin spiced lattes, hers was hot, mine was iced. I wasn't able to drink much because I was so nervous about my next appointment. I started to have a panic attack while at Starbucks, so I had to go to the bathroom and calm my nerves. I was really dreading the appointment.
We got to the urologist and I took a picture of the fountain that's in the waiting room holding its weiner:
It took a while for the nurse to call me back. While sitting there, a woman came in that I know. Her daughter Dama and I were best friends when we were in our early teens. We hugged and she told me what Dama has been up to recently. The last time I talked to Dama, her daughter had just turned 5. Now her daughter is 7, she has an 18 month old son, she's a teacher and she's working on her doctorate!
After she was called back, Mary and I noticed a woman across the waiting room from us. She was staring at us. It didn't bother me but it was making Mary uncomfortable. To get her to stop staring, I grabbed my phone and snapped a picture of her:
After I took the picture and showed it to Mary, the woman didn't stare at us anymore! hahaha!
The nurse finally called me back and I was so nervous. She assured me that everything would be find. You see, I've had urodynamics before and it hurts SO much. What they did last time was:
- Put a tube in my bladder to drain everything out to measure it.
- Took that tube out, then put in a monitor.
- Put another tube in my bladder to fill my it to capacity.
- Had me cough, laugh, and strain to document any leakage.
- Took that tube out, then had me walk over to a toilet looking device to have me pee to measure how much I could pee out on my on and monitor what my bladder did while peeing.
- Put another tube in the drain any excess to measure it.
- Then finally take everything out.
I was miserable last time, but this woman did things very differently! This time she:
- Had me pee in the toilet looking device to measure it.
- Put a tube in my bladder to drain any excess.
- Put a monitor in my vagina opening.
- Used the same tube for draining to fill my bladder to capacity.
- Had me cough, laugh, and strain to document any leakage.
- Sat me up and the table converted into a toilet!
- Had me pee into the device to measure how much I could be out on my own and monitor what my bladder did while peeing.
- Drained the excess with the tube that was already inside me.
- Took everything out.
It was a million times better than the last one!! All the tests came back saying I will NOT require another surgery on my bladder!! I was so happy!!!
After we left there, we went to L-Kat's house to visit with her, Zoey and Jon for a little while. It was good spending time with her!
Unfortunately, I had a horrible headache. When I have places I have to go and I have to be out all day, I get a stress headache. It's horrible and I hate it because it spoils my fun. Mary and I came back to Tarboro and I dropped her off at her house. I came back home and took some medication for my headache. I ended up going to bed really early.
I'm glad those tests are over with. Now I have to get through my stress test tomorrow and go over the results with my cardiologist. Fingers crossed that my heart doesn't explode or do weird shit that will postpone my weight loss surgery!