4253Brooks
Hello, MY Name is Samantha. I'm going to be 43 this year. I have been fighting with my weight for the last 9 yrs. I started putting on weight and when i did it came all at once. It was like overnight . In the matter of months i went from a size 8 to a 28. It is a struggle for me to walk up 6 stairs being winded when i get to the top. and haven forbid I have to go right back down then I'm panting and breathing heavy even sweating. I live in a split level. so on laundry day its much worse. not only do I have to do the steps going to get the clothes and bringing them down then i have to go down and up 6 more stairs to the basement. Then i' m almost having an asthma attack. It has gotten to the point now where I don't want to go out in public. I'm afraid of what people will say. I don't want my feelings hurt. People ask when are you due? are you expecting? When I do go out in public because i' m the size I am. I have to make sure I look nice and everything is right. That is stressful because i don't want to be out in the public eye anyway. It's hard to find clothes that fit. like jeans the thighs to tight or not enough room in the butt. Blouses can never find them to come down long enough to cover my belt so my belly don't show. To tight in the arms. I'm just not comfortable with myself. I don't even look in a full length mirror or stand in front of glass doors where you can see yourself, Because I don't like who i' m looking at. A lot of the time I think that's why I don't see my daughters, because they are ashamed to be seen with me. This has lowered my self esteem I'm depressed a lot. I want the old me back. I have ran into people that haven't seen me for years since i put on the weight. Either they don't recognize me or they do and don't what to be seen with me. Or they don't want to acknowledge that they know me. With this weight i now have diabetes high cholesterol, carpal tunnel my asthma has gotten worse and so has the depression. I used to be a bowler and with this weight it's to hard to bowl. It's hard to bike ride i get winded just walking to the corner.
