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Still blogging forward
Aug 07, 2012
Ok, so it's time to continue my journey as provoked by a great friend. I guess I tend to get lost in my own world and don't manage to put things down. Today I am at 7 weeks of post surgery time. I am down 60lbs and moving forward everyday. It's amazing in the life of a larger person the things you adjust too and don't realize what is considered "not normal" in today's society. Last week I had an experience that made me feel inadequate. I went to a demolition derby at the fair and the seats were extremely small. I found it to be an embarrassing situation as I knew I overflowed into the other persons seat. I kept looking at my boyfriend and stating how embarrassing this was- at this point I was down 54lbs and had been feeling really good about myself. I have never been the girl who was embarrassed by her weight, just dealt with it because it was there. He looked at me and said- you have come 54lbs further than you were. Don't let this set you back. I realized that it was true, however the next couple of days I found myself looking to "veggie straws" for support. "They were healthy"-right- no wrong. On day two with the veggie straws in the house I looked at the bag and dumped them in the garbage, with the statement they aren't allowed back in. I realized that one two hour event took two days for me to realize what was going on- I am now understanding that even though I never thought that I was "that" person who turned to food- I actually am. This journey is proven to be one that is well worth it, I just am learning more and more about myself than I have at any other time. I am a fortunate girl- one with a signifigant other who supports my choices, and helps when I am down- This past Saturday he "demanded" that I go pull his miata around to the side of the house so he could change the oil- I refused stating that "I couldn't fit" he stated to me go get it and if you don't fit, come back and let me know. With high anxiety I walked out front to get the car, looked at it with my head hung low and proceeded to expect what I expected. In turn I didn't get that at all. I fit- I really fit in such a small car behind the steering wheel. When I came pulling up to the garage I think the smile on my face was bigger than anything. He walks out and I said how did you know and I didn't- His response was because I did. This journey by no means has been easy, and heck I am only 7 weeks out- but I do know this if I had to chose this again, I by far would have done it years earlier.
I have learned that no matter how bad things get, there is always another day and another way to do things. Stay positive and positivity comes home....Until we meet again-
Edge
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I have learned that no matter how bad things get, there is always another day and another way to do things. Stay positive and positivity comes home....Until we meet again-
Edge
Bloggin along
Jun 20, 2012
Well I figure today is the day to start my blog-
June 15th- The day I took the plunge-
I decided that I was tired of being fat- I am a very active larger person- I am a second degree blackbelt, play softball, and basically do what I want. I have never allowed my weight to stop me from doing ANYTHING I wanted too. I have however seen my weight stop other people from allowing me to do what I want to- I know the prejudice is out there towards overweight people. I have experienced it, even thought times I have told myself it really wasn't happening. So I decided to take control of an out of control situation and get healthy.
The first step I took was to sit down with my family and get their input- I knew that without a stable support structure no matter how hard I wanted something it would make it that much more difficult for me to obtain the goal if I didn't have it. The first person was my boyfriend. I asked him if he would support me- His response was more than expected- He stated he loved me as I was, and would love me the same smaller. He cared about me for who I was not what I looked like. That he thought it was a great idea for me to get healthy- so BINGO what a great man- My dad and brothers also were very supportive so I plugged forward-
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June 15th- The day I took the plunge-
I decided that I was tired of being fat- I am a very active larger person- I am a second degree blackbelt, play softball, and basically do what I want. I have never allowed my weight to stop me from doing ANYTHING I wanted too. I have however seen my weight stop other people from allowing me to do what I want to- I know the prejudice is out there towards overweight people. I have experienced it, even thought times I have told myself it really wasn't happening. So I decided to take control of an out of control situation and get healthy.
The first step I took was to sit down with my family and get their input- I knew that without a stable support structure no matter how hard I wanted something it would make it that much more difficult for me to obtain the goal if I didn't have it. The first person was my boyfriend. I asked him if he would support me- His response was more than expected- He stated he loved me as I was, and would love me the same smaller. He cared about me for who I was not what I looked like. That he thought it was a great idea for me to get healthy- so BINGO what a great man- My dad and brothers also were very supportive so I plugged forward-
