Day 42-Post

May 11, 2009

So day 42 today.  Week 6.  Starting this week I am able to add in regular food on a limited basis, including more proteins.  I am really sick of eggs, tuna fish, white flaky fish, salmon and the like.  I tried some sliced deli turkey last night, seemed to go okay.  I have recently been feeling physical hunger at times, nothing unmanageable, but I find that somewhat distressing.  I have caught myself starting to graze or eat more regularly between meals, we are talking small amounts here, but that's the case.   I had some vomiting and nausea this week when eating pasta, perogies, etc.  I'm just so sick of the same foods, I had to try something different.  It is crucial that I need eat between meals and that I space them out.  I have started reading some OA books.  I think long term I am going to need to something more to assist me, especially further on down the road.  Some relatives and friends who have had the surgery have become small grazers, essentially still fueling the addiction to food, though in smaller portions.  Their weight loss has slowed down considerably or stopped or in some cases, after a couple of years gone up a bit.  

Last week I lost about two pounds.   I know that weight loss will have fits and starts, but this was discouraging.  I did not have the surgery so that I could lose two pounds a week (at least at this stage).  My total weight loss is 45 pounds.  Weighing has become another thing that defines me, that sets up my day and moods.  I need to focus on right behaviors and less on what the scale says.  I need abstinence between meals.  I have to get this right.  

I have walked a couple of times, but need more regular exercise.  I will join the YMCA today.  Then I will have no excuse in bad whether.   

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