Not happy...

Jul 11, 2009

I've been stuck at my weight for a few weeks. Then last week I went up 8 lbs.!!!!!! I couldn't believe the gain! I hadn't changed my food or routine. I mean it. So I have been observing my weight this past week. I actually fluctuate 5 lbs. every couple of days. It's amazing how rapidly it goes up and down. I have read that this is normal, but this is the first weight gain since surgery. I have been averaging a 5 lb. loss per month and am not happy to see this...especially since it seems to be sticking around. I am officially down 4 lbs. of that 8 gain. That still leaves me 4 lbs. higher than my low. And I'm not even near my personal goal yet. The only big thing I have been dealing with is financial stress. My husband's layoff is killing the household budget.

All of this has me thinking. Is my personal goal realistic? Is my activity level still too low? Am I slipping into old patterns? Do I need additional support? All of these are realistic questions and I believe that the answer is I have to make adjustments across the board.

My doc had said my goal should be around 225. I set the 185. I am rethinking the goal. This only helps me stay realistic and not stress myself out. I stress eat. NOT the way to achieve anything.

I do not do daily exercize. Hell, I don't even do a regular pattern of anything. Yes, this is a big problem.

Old patterns - a little. Have to force myself to have protein for breakfast. (I was a skipper of meals.) Also have to not eat later at night. Also, need to up my fluids.

Support - yes. I think I have been OK up to this point with just the office visits and this site. Now the office visits are every 6 months and I haven't been talking nutrition like I need to to keep it in the forefront of my mind.

What I don't understand...but am VERY grateful for...is that my body is still getting smaller. I know that seems odd, especially with any gain. But I have lost in my upper arms, bust, and hips. My waist remains the same...sigh...but I believe that is in part due to the fact that my skin is so saggy in my gut that it has nowhere to go. Whan I close my pants, they fit great in the butt and hips now, but it's still trying to close the button on these smaller sizes that kills me. 

I know not to wait...pun intended...and to address this gain and any changes that I've mentioned, or else I will be headed in the wrong direction in my life. I am so not going back there.

I spent 10 hours staining my deck yesterday. Definitely increased activity...so sore today. Shopped healthy. Ate my vitamins and meds. Going to go address the protein now. I am trying to get my family to go to the beach today. I want to take a long walk on the shore. OK. Today's another day. No more sitting...gotta move.

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