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Yesterday I started the 3 day military diet, already I'm down 2 lbs. I know it's just a temporary solution but I just want to feel a little better for New years Eve. The first day was tough lol talk about hangry (when you are angry from being hungry) I'll let you all know how it goes by day 3 

Started the 3 day military diet yesterday (fast fix to shed a few pounds for New years Eve) the first day was hard, talk about being hangry  (angry from being hungry lol) lost 2 lbs just after the first day. Again, I know it's gonna come back after the diet is over but I just want to lose a few pounds to feel better on New Years. Will let yas know how much I lose total 

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 I have fallen and picked myself back up more times than I can count but if I keep believing that tomorrow can be better, I never truly give up. Struggling with alcohol is a prime example. Every night I drink with the promise that tomorrow I won't. sounds depressing but I have hope that tomorrow may be better and sometimes that hope gets me a week or two without alcohol or when I'm struggling to diet and it's always I'll start tomorrow, that hope of a better tomorrow may get me back on track for a month or two. The thing is is that if I live my life day to day, I truly never give up. Is it a constant battle? Absolutely, but no matter how much I mess up today, tomorrow is a new day. Never give up.. 

about 3 years ago, my life was flipped upside down. i was unhappy in my marriage and instead of talking it out with my husband, i ran into the arms of the guy who listened to my problems and i fell in love. not my finest moment and when it seems to good to be true, it always is. he was worse than my husband and just used me and broke my heart. my husband asked to give our marriage another try and i agreed and we've been open and honest with eachother ever since, happy and in love more than ever. however, going through my first heart break since i was a teenager, i started drinking. at first it was a few drinks out with friends one or two nights a week and then it was a few drinks to relax at home after a hard days work and now its every night until i cant remember what i even did or said. in the last 3 years ive gained 55 pounds, im completely unhappy and i know its the alcohol. i try my best to stop, promise myself all day that i wont drink that night but once its time to sit down and watch tv, i just cant help myself. if i make it till after the liquor store is closed then i go to the grocery store to get a 12 pack. if i make it until thats closed then i go to the bar for a 6 pack. its hard being that i work at a bar 2 nights a week and that i live within a 500 foot radius of the liquor store, grocery store and 2 bars.. i am desperate to go back down to 125 lbs. i have a problem and i need help . i need to come back as a regular to obesityhep and i need yall to keep me focused and on my feet

on october 13th i finally got married and for the first time in my life i truly felt beautiful. most brides starve themselves and kill themselves with diets and exercise but i actually had to struggle to not lose weight (because i had paid $325 to have my dress sized and didnt want to pay more to have it fitted again) i really am happy now. im in a size 5 jeans and a small/medium shirt. i still have lose skin but unless i win the lottery ill never be able to do anything about that. i can walk tall and know that i dont look like a bubble. i can relax and not have to worry about diets or being afraid to eat in front of ppl.. this surgery was the best thing ive ever done...

one year ago today i took a giant step forward and changed my life forever. so far its one of the best choices ive ever made and thats right up there under having my two beautiful babies. from todays date of last year till today i have lost 102lbs and all together with the 4 month diet i have lost 120lbs. i cant say that i have lots of energy as i thought BUT i do feel great. i not only reached my goal but i blew it out of the water.. being 10 lbs under my goal weight is amazing and i have to give myself a pat on the back because I DID IT!!! :'-D   me the person who doesnt stick with anything, and i feel greeeeaaaat!

today ive reached my goal, i lost 90 lbs in the 9 months after surgery. now at my goal weight of 140 lbs im in a size medium shirt from aeropostal and a size 9 jeans also from aeropostal. im so excited and happy... 9 months ago i never thought id be able to shop at aero. i do have to admit that i kinda felt like i lost myself a little along the way because i use to dress a certain way that fit my body size and now those clothes dont match my new body size but i only wear black shirts and aero doesnt have a big offering of black shirts :-/  so i felt lost on how i should dress but over the 9 months i did start to get used to it and accept my change.

im about 9 months out and ive hit a wall. today i weighed in at 145lbs and ive been fluctuating between 142 and 145 : (   im so close to my goal of 140 lbs and i dont want to stop right before i get there. i need to bust my ass and get down to what i want to be at. i need to get back on track from before my step mom passed away, but how? am i gonna give up right before the finish line? do i have it in me to lose that last 2-5 lbs? i got to do it...... just look down at ur wrist at that hurricane tattoo that you got after ur surgery to promise urself that no one will ever call you bigger then hurricane katrina again..... i can do it. i can do it. i can do it....... everytime i want an unhealthy snack or a fatty burger or slice of pizza i just need to say that to myself... dont let ann or rhonda or mark win. this is my life and my body and i have the control... its no ones fault but my own and i have the control.......

just going through my before photos and i cant believe who i was and how far ive come. i went from 252 lbs down to 144 lbs. just looking at the pics i really want to cry. i lost so much weight and hopefully im gonna keep losing. i am now in a size 9 and before the surgery i was a size 22. i honestly just want to cry because of how happy i am. im still hopin to go down to 130 so im still gonna continue to push myself. maybe soon ill be able to put up before and after pics : )

this week i had a good one. i went to the deb and got a size 14 jeans and they feel great on me then on monday i got on the scale to find that i lost 5.3 lbs. this has not happend to me since the first two weeks after surgery. i got a diet plan and an excercise routine going and after a week of light eating (salad with chicken chunks with balsomic viniger 125 calories) and walking about 4 miles a day i finally broke out of the 2 lbs weight loss. im currently at 181 lbs so i passed my second goal of 183 lbs which is what i weighed all through high school so my third goal is to be 156 lbs. and i choose that weight to prove to my brothers girlfriend that i can do it. : )   gonna soon try on my wedding dress again, wish me luck