The consult

Aug 07, 2012

 So had my first consult today. Got some good news and some bad news.

Good news: My BMI is 40. that qualifies me for the VSG.
Bad news: My insurance requires I diet for 6 months prior.

If my BMI falls below 40...i don't qualify for the surgery. 

Yep...

So here is my frustration. I know I will loose weight when I diet...always have. The issues is that I stall out. I gain back my weight...eventually. It may be beyond the 6 month mark.  The scenario I am worried about is I loose the weight (WONDERFUL that is after all what I want...) but not the amount i need ..lets be REAL optimistic and say 30 pounds in 6 months. I now weigh 245...!!!245!!!  that is still considered MORBIDLY OBESE. That puts my BMI under 40 and because I am doing this BEFORE i develop heart disease or hypertension,  I no longer qualify for this surgery.

OK . fast forward a additional 6 months. Weight is back. I may not be at 275 yet but I am no longer loosing or maintain. Worse yet..a year from that..I am now not only morbidly obese STILL  but I now have developed type two diabetes. 


I know I need help...I know what to eat..I know how to eat..I just can not get rid of this unending hunger that screws me up every time. 

Who would ever think someone would be upset that they were not heavy/sick enough??
How ungrateful am I for that...I feel so self centered. 


ON THE PLUS SIDE

I am making myself look at the positive side of this. 
I do not have to pay $4,500 out of pocket if I do this myself.
IT IS a lifestyle change not just a short term food intake change. 
No stress of surgery and the risk that come with it.
Satisfaction that I am capable of change without drastic intervention. 

I plan on doing this exercise and dietary documentation that I need. If I skip a month I have to start over. I do not want to just skate by because this needs to be a lifestyle change for me and MY FAMILY. 

So I swear I will try as hard as I can to accomplish this. If I loose weight and stay below 40% I will see it a positive thing that I can maintain a healthy lifestyle. 


God...I want a cheeseburger.
Amy

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