arg2689
Feelin the BURN!!
Nov 02, 2018
Yesterday was the day I decided I needed to stop relying on others to get my rear end in gear. It's all fun and games to talk about going on walks during lunches with coworkers and eating healthy and crap. But how often does that actually happen? rarely.
So, I woke up, looked at myself in the mirror and said, "stop being dependent and waiting for others to get you up and going. Stop setting high expectations on yourself about getting skinny. You have a husband and 2 kids who need support and motivation. Lose the mindframe of I am going to this to get skinny, I am going to do this for my husband, I am going to do this so I can fit in normal sized clothing. NO! No more! I am going to do this for me because I need to get healthy. I need to see my kids grow up and blossom in their own lives. I have so much to offer and so much more to live for. Stop trying to do this for others and waiting on others to make your lifestyle changes. Do it your damn self!!"
That was the best pep talk I have ever given myself. Working in the healthcare field I have gained such a different perspective on health. And as I am creeping up on my 30s, I realize that it doesn't get easier. If I don't take care of myself now, then how can I take care of myself later?
I went from primary care, running around like a chicken with it's head cut off from 730am-530pm, no energy or desire to be a mom or wife after hours due to the high stress work pace and over the top high stress level that I started hating life and who I was.
Now I am in a specialty and over the past few weeks I have improved. My husband and kids told me one night over dinner that they are so happy that I am in my new job because I am happy again and seem to be more peaceful. That spoke tremendous words! I was so wrapped up in stress and my own issues that I did not realize I was bringing my misery home and it was effecting the loves of my life.
I am looking forward to bettering myself, and I can honestly say this is the first time I am actually looking forward to it.
My main goal is to not set expectations for myself and to just do what makes me feel good, for myself!
