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Hello all my name is andrea and I am addicted to food....... boy i tell you i have to change my mind set. I want to eat everything i see thinking I have to eat and enjoy that now because i may never be able to eat that again....i keep thinking after the 17th of Jan i will not be able to have this or that or blah blah blah......well i have no choice but to get over this addiction, and move on to something healthier and more productive. I think i am going to get back into scrapbooking and preserving my family memories and into card making to let those i love know i am thinking about them. But so far it has been hard. I know I have to change how i see food or my tool will do me no good. So i better start now. I dont want food to control my life anymore or my weight to hold me down.

Ok so today I had to have my upper scope done. The nirses were so nice! They made sure I knew everything that was going to happen and answered every question I did not have. I was so nervous to tell the truth. When I went back to the procedure room, they told me here comes the good stuff and off to lala land I went...all i remember was when they put in the bite block so that I wont bite the scope, I was thinking " I hope i dont drool all over the place...then nest thing I knew I was waking up staring at some picture thinking...where am I and where is my hubby, and a nurse was there right away when I started to come to...to let me know all went well. Afterwards I was just gasy....not i am gassy and i feel kinda blah, like my sugars are too low. Tired, weak, nauseaus (spelling) and still gassy. Other then that all went well.

I met the interist that will be caring for me while in the hospital and he looked just like my uncle!!! He seemed like he knew his stuff and it was nice to meet him before, so that at least I knew who the strange man was that was in my room LOL....

Ok so I am wondering if it is "normal" to feel like every meal is my last meal. I feel like i have to enjoy everything because this is the last time I can eat like this. It is bitter sweet. I know that I will still eat, not as much (which is how it really should be), but I have to learn how to let go the one thing I always felt was ALWAYS "there for me" no matter what. I have to learn to have anew healthy addition. Scrapbooking, working, working out. I just cant help but wonder will i still be able to have my favorite sushi, cake, rice, shrimp, etc. Did or does anyone else feel that way? I know it is going to be hard of letting something go that has been such a major part of everything I do. It is for the best and that is what makes it bitter sweet. It is for my life and for my health, and being here to enjoy my life, kids, and family is more important to me then food.

  MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

So I have to say something so stupid and I cant believe i am saying it but here it goes........those who are overweight such as myself, and having WLS are just some of the nicest and most understanding people I have ever met. We are such a rare breed it is just a shame that many people cant look past the outer shell and what THEY think is less then beautiful...what do they know about beauty anyways! 

It is amazing the people you meet when you say I am having WLS..they seem to come out of the wood work. Case and point I was a t a function Monday and was talking about WLS and later in the evening a georgous young lady came up to me and mentioned that she had WLS a year and a half ago with the surgeon that I am using and said that if i wanted to kow anything she was so happy to talk with me and answet my questions....now looking at her I WOULD HAVE NEVER guess she had RNY!! All i can say is WOW!!!! She was an inspiration. Its so nice to meet nice people.....

Ok so i am gonna get off my soap box now.

If i cant get on in time I wasnt to wish you all a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

OK so all I can think of to say is just a WOW.......on dec 5th I had my first appt with my surgeon for the RNY, went well. So today I get a phone call from the office. TRICARE APPROVED ME ALREADY   and i have my appt for my scope on JAN 2 and my preop on JAN 14 and my surgery on FEB 1 I can not believe it!!! Make room on the loser bench....alot of room at first LOL

So I am feeling so excited and flat out nervous about my appointment upcoming, I wonder what will happen, what to expect, when I will find out if and when i can have the RNY...My mind is like a whirl wind of thoughts but I guess I will find out soon enough......

I wanted to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving. 

it has been a little while since my l ast post I have been so busy with work and school and kids activities...blah blah blah. 

Since my last post I have been trying to decrease my food intake (with exception of today LOL). For breakfast I have been having one packet of oatmeal, with no added butter or sugar! Lunch is a lean cuisine fruit and crystal light, dinner is only one serving of whatever i fix. To be honest I think my stomache has gotten smaller!!! The other night I tried to eat a whopper (normally i would have wolfed down 2)....and i couldnt finish!!!!!! I have cut out alot of sugar, change to diet pop (only once in a while) mostly crystal light, and splenda ( I LOVE SPLENDA)....havent quite dropped too many pounds, but I feel better (more energy) and my tummy is smaller (not as small as it will be after surgery tho). Well after all my impatients my initial consult is just around the corner the 5th of Dec. I am nervous and excited all rolled into one! I will keep you posted.

I hope this finds you all happy and well....

So its been about a week since my last post. Today I turned in the cameras from mine and hubbies vacation in August.........why didn't anyone tell me how big I really was!!!!  (i dont think i would have listened anyways)......Ok so i hear cameras add ten punds well then where did the other 100 come from??? I don't have mirrors that are full length in the house so I guess it is my own fault for not knowing what I look like, BUT WOW.....i know that i am making the right choice by having surgery, not only for my health, but my mental well being as well.   

Who made cameas anyways!!! LOL 

Sorry just feeling down in the dumps....................

I guess it is a good thing that I am a beautiful person inside...

OK so yesterday I was SUPPOSED to have my rescheduled echo of my heart but guess what!!!! It was cancelled AGAIN!!! I just want to keep doing what i have to do to get into surgery. I really want a sooner initial date then Dec 5th. My hubby is a drill sergeant and I really need to have the acutal surgery somewhere near Dec 19th when he can ACTUALY have some time off to help care for me and our children. 

So the good news is that the increase in my blood pressure meds are working and the headaches and chestpain and blurred vision with something as simple as walking has really improved, so that makes me very happy. Although the medication they put me on makes me even more tired then normal..........

One day at a time I guess...... they say patience is a virtue........