Carol M.

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I have to be at the hospital at 6:20am.  It's gonna be an early morning.  I am gonna take some Ambien tonight so I can get a good night's rest.  My CPAP machine and I aren't getting along too well yet. 

I don't know what got into me, but I bought and ate half a loaf of italian bread tonight with dinner.  I wouldn't say I was craving it but it sure did smell good in the store.  Surgery is Tuesday, maybe I did succomb to the "last supper' syndrome after all.  At least I have Sat/Sun/Mon to go back to the stict liquid diet and make up for my transgression tonight.   Tomorrow I am going to the local Ren Faire so, I will get plenty of walking in to help counteract my horrible lack of self control. 

I had my pre-op testing today.  All is well and I have the green light for next Tuesday.  I am down another 5 lbs too !  I am ready to do this and join the crowd of thinning people !!!

It's gonna be a busy night.  I have a support group meeting at 6:30pm and then the concert immediately afterwards.  I am bummed to miss the tailgate parties but I don't need to drink to have a good time and enjoy the show.  It will actually be nice to get there just as he goes on stage and slip out before the encore and before the traffic !!!  Seeing him every summer is always a treat !!!

2 weeks from today is my re-birthday.  I did all my nesting type house cleaning this weekend.  Thank the Goddess it was a 3 day weekend.  I did the downstairs on Sunday and the upstairs on Monday.  Saturday was my play day.  Went and saw Pat Benetar in concert.  What a great show.   A little short for my liking (she only played for 1 hr and 15mins) but I had awesome seats.

I keep getting invited to last hurrah functions.  I keep hearing, it's just one time, you will be fine before your surgery.  I have to dig deep down and pull out that resolve that helps me to say no thanks.  I appreciate the offers, but I don't need to go out and drink or pig out on food to have a good time.  This is the new version of peer pressure I suppose.  I can't tell if people mean well or they are subconsciously trying to sabotage my efforts? 

Instead of going completely liquid for the next two weeks, I am making breakfast and dinner liquid meals.  I am not required by my doctor to do this.  I am doing it for myself to help get the weight loss a kick in the pants.  I am trying to up the protein so I won't feel so hungry.  It wasn't bad today.  I ate really good at lunch.  Low carbs, low fat, no sugar, no breads.  Bread and pasta are my undoing, so I have to be especially careful not to try it "just this once" as , just this once becomes, "next time I won't have it"...yeah..right.  Heard that one before !!!

The spouse, or as I commonly refer to him as "the wife", is not supportive.  He's not eating junk food in front of me or anything, but he is not taking any active role in learning about this stuff.  He only wants to know the basics, I am having surgery and I won't be eating the same again.  To him, that's it in a nutshell.  In a way, I guess you could say that is true.  But WLS is so much more than that.  His eating habits are absolutely horrendous.  His diet consists of hot dogs, hamburgers, french fries, pizza and hot pockets.  Vegatables are not even in his vocabulary.  He wonders why he can't loose his extra 25 lbs he has put on???  Hmmm...I can't think of why either....oh..yeah...because he was a  Momma's boy.  His mother always cowed down to his tantrums about food.  In my house growing up, you ate what was on your plate or you went hungry, end of story.  Then again...he lived the Beaver Cleaver life, with a stay at home Mom.  My mom was home when she wasn't at work.  No wonder he has no concept of reality !!!