beccabecca66
One more week
Oct 26, 2010
Next week Tuesday is my surgery. Yesterday was all the presurgery admission testing and meeting with the anesthesiologist. It was so 'real' and i was feeling a lot of pressure and stress.I'm very ashamed of myself. I did the 'last meal' thinking and bought a bag of salty and sour chips, a candy bar, and two double cheeseburgers. I ate it all. I was so sickly full and miserable at night. Not only for being overly full, but for giving in so easily to urges for junk food. I've been doing so well these past three weeks, working hard to eat right to shrink my liver enough so that he doesn't have to do an open surgery.
But today is a new day, and I can't linger on the bad thoughts of yesterday. I got up, had my breakfast, and went for my walk. It was incredibly windy, and the sky threatened rain. But by the end of the walk, the wind had blown away the rain clouds and the sun came out. It must be a sign. Things will be okay.
