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Well Will came home 10 days ago for his 2 week R&R. He hadn't seen me in 10 months. We had a very rocky start. It was hard for me because I kind of had an ideal reunion in my head and it just didn't turn out that way. I should not have been surprised because out of 6 deployments he has never reacted the way I wish he would when he comes home. I guess that's just part of us women, we want the romantic version and the guys not so much. I have excepted the fact that my husband just is not romantic at all and that I just expect too much from him. I am trying to come to terms with that. His reaction to my weight loss was kind of an indifferent attitude, like he really could careless whether I am thin or not. I don't feel sexy in front of him at all.
We have been married for 13 years. I don't know if that has to do with the feeling sexy part of it or what. I do know that I love him with all my heart and we will work through all this its just hard to do in 2 weeks. He is my soul mate, I just am not sure how to rekindle the spark we had in the beginning. Is this how its suppose to be this far out into the marriage? Like I said I love him with all my heart and I miss the hell out of him when he is gone. He is my best friend and has been from the beginning of our relationship. I can not imagine life without him in it. I know that a lot of marriages don't last after WLS and I refuse to be one of those statistics. We have 3 beautiful children and 13 years invested. I do understand now how the divorce rate is so high though. Anyways thats the going ons here. Just thought I'd update and get my feelings out in the open.

My year surgiversary is near and I couldnt be happier. I have achieved my goal and so far been maintaining for a few months. Things around here are going pretty well. I miss Will like crazy 8 months since we have seen him is a long time. R&R cant get here soon enough. I am really lonely right now, and struggling with not grazing from emotional eating, but I am doing it. Thats it for now. Thanks for following me

I am so bad about updating this thing. Well its almost June and I am 10 months post op. I have reached my surgeons goal of 150 pounds, did that a few months ago, now I am at 125 pounds and happy for the most part. Things are going pretty good. Kids are growing fast, school will let out June 5th. I am excited for that, we'll be on the move lots and I am happy bout that. Will is coming home on R&R sometime in Oct. He has not seen me since 180 pounds so we'll see what he thinks

Well here we are another month gone and a new one fast leaving us too. I am slowing down on the weightloss thus far. I am 145 pounds now, actually I am pretty happy with the results just wish the extra skin would just go away but hey to be healthy is just so freakin awesome I can deal with the skin issues. My Mom came in from Minnesota on tuesday, its great having her here, after 4 years of not seeing her it feels like heaven. Its amazing she and I are almost the same size, she is a little smaller then me but not by much. I have never been my Mom's size ever. The kids and I are doing well, Will not so much, he is having such a hard time being away from us. I guess 3 times in 5 years is a little much huh? Oh well I will be posting more pics later.

I am lucky I really havent had any complications from the surgery. I have lost 80 pounds and went from a size 22 to a size 6. I am down to 150 pounds only 20-30 more to go. Will is in Iraq and the kids and I are adjusting to life without him. I started a new job waitressing and I love it. I have so much confidence now that it allows me to do this, before I was so ashamed of my weight I would of never done this. Thats about it here.

Well on the 23rd of this month I will be 2 months out, down 44 pounds. I went from 230 pounds down to 186. I have about 60 pounds left to lose. I am quite happy with the results. I had a platue for 2 weeks. It sucked but now I am on the losing end again.
I am able to eat 4 oz at a time and I drink about 100 oz of water a day. I have found however that I dont dump on sugar but I do on sugar alcohols. Go figure I can eat a cinnamon roll with icing but I cant eat sugar free jello pudding. I know BAD for eating the cinnamon roll but I just couldnt resist. 
Now onto my family life since surgery. Will left when I was 2 weeks out, so he hasnt seen me since I have lost the majority of this weight. Oh yeah I also got a hair cut. I will put that in my album. So anyways thats about all for now

Here is my before and 1 month after. I have lost 34 pounds and doing great. I have started eating fish..never thought I'd do that but I have and its not so bad, My fav is shrimp though. I am getting in all of my protein and all of my water. So anyways thats about it
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v212/beckamarie/beforenafter1month.jpg

Two weeks ago today I had my surgery. I feel better everyday. I am getting in all my protein and all my water so thats good. Today however I feel very weak and run down. I am just going to take it easy and see how things go. I have lost a total of 25 pounds since pre-op to now. 15 of thse pounds have been in the last 2 weeks. I am amazed at how this is just falling off. I do walk and eat what I am suppose to so I shouldnt be surprised but I guess in the back of my mind I feel like I may be the 1 person this doesnt work for. Silly I know but its how I feel. I have my 2 week follow up on thursday with the dietician and psycologist and then on friday with the surgeon. BTW I love my surgeon he rocks

Well today is 5 days out and I feel pretty good. I actualy went grocery shopping and then to the PX. I actualy found a protein shake I like today. It has 35 grams of Protein and tastes yummy. Its 11 oz. I am a little worried it seems I am able to drink pretty quickly without anything happening. I drank 11 oz in about 30 minutes today. Anywasy I am on pureed foods now and was happy to finally find some stuff I like. I made a puree tonight it had 3 oz of shrimp, 1 tsp of light mayo, 1tsp lemon juice, garlic salt and onion powder and some Hot sauce. I pureed it together and it was amazing

Well I have been posting about my approval process but I dont think I have ever talked about how I got to where I am. I like so many of you thought at a young age I was fat. I remember being 12 years old and weighing 125lbs at 5ft tall. I remember my grandma and Mom telling me I was fat. At the age of 12 my mom put me on the Herbal Life diet. I lost about 60 lbs. I kept that off and grew to be a normal size through my teen years but always had the impression I was fat at 5ft 2 in tall I weight 125 until I was 16 years old. I then started gaining weight. I got up to 165lbs and stayed there until I was 23. I met my soon to be hubby and gained 20lbs. Making me weigh 185lbs. He loved me reguardless so it wasnt too big a deal. Then I got pregnant and had our daughter. I was 214 lbs then. I got pregnant with our 2nd child and gained nothing I was 214 when I went to my 1st appointment and the day I delivered I weighed the same. I had Gestational diabetes and walked alot to keep my blood sugar down. When I left the hospital I weighed 172lbs, the least I had weighed in years. My husband was in Germany with the Army so me and both kids flew over to be with him, in the 3 years there I gained about 50 lbs. I dieted all three years there. Never losing more then 10-20 lbs always to gain it back plus more. When we got to Georgia I had decided that I wanted RNY but became pregnant with our 3rd child. I promised myself after he was born I would give myself 1 year to do it through diet and exercise. I lost 50 lbs and kept it off for 2 years but it slowly crept back up plus some. So we get here to Hawaii and I decide I want it again, finally got enough nerve to go for it, now my date is 3 weeks away. So thats my life