Beckypooh
Independance Day July 4, 2013 I'm back @ an unfortunate 235 lbs
Jul 03, 2013
Wow, time has flown by. It's been 5 years since I posted on ObesityHelp.com. When last I posted, I was 4 years post up with 1 year old twins. Now my twins are 6! The format for the blogging has changed so I had to save off my old profile and copy and paste into the new blog format. It was so inspiring reading over my story. I'm glad I had taken the time to document my journey.
I remember when I started putting some of my weight back on after the kids were born my Dr. advised me to get back on track by following the exact same diet I had after the surgery. I had to read the blog to remember that the first 2 weeks I had blenderized proteins and soups exclusively. I weaned off sugar and caffeine completely... and forget about alcohol, which I'd never had a taste for anyway!
These days, unfortunately, my diet looks much more like my pre-op diet. Oh I've retained some changes... I can eat sweets but I never know if I'm going to experience dumping so I'm still careful. I don't drink milk, rarely have ice cream in any form. But otherwise I can eat anything I want. I can go hours without being hungry but I don't leverage that to my advantage. I snack and drink beer when I shouldn't. Yeah, I'm one of the statistics when it comes to alcohol after having gastric bypass. It isn't filling but it gives me that calming feeling I enjoyed when I used to be able to eat to my heart's content. Problem is, the calories add up.
I stopped exercising when I became pregnant; still, I gained less than 25 lbs during the pregnancy and I walked out of the hospital at around 160 lbs. I did a lot sitting around with my babies for months after they were born. My husband started a night shift job and I became depressed and overwhelmed. My PMS overtook me about a year later - became far worse until I required a medication to control my emotional moods - crying, anger, stress, etc.
Then the weight started creeping back on. I picked up bad habits to cope with the stresses in my life. I'm sure my pouch stretched. My hubby picked up bad habits too and we kind of "fed" off each other's behaviors.
I'm so sad to have reached 236 lbs again. I'm not comfortable, I'm losing the confidence I once had, and I'm back to blogging and posting on ObesityHelp.com because I need support and I need to get back the focus I once had.