Month Five

Jan 22, 2010

Only six pounds this month, 259 to 253.  Half my previous low loss of 11 per month but better than gaining.  I don't think I have had any issues at all this month, no nausea, no vomiting, no heavy feeling in the stomach. 

I have been testing the waters and all seems good now, no issues with any foods which is both good and bad.  I can now have a small slice of crusty french bread with my soup without it feeling like lead shots balls in my gut, easy 100 calorie addition if I chose to spread my meal to a half hour.

I will confess that I hit the Lucky Charms this month 10 to 12 times which was probably good for holding me back a pound or two or three, that and the whole milk Tim Hortons Lattes with Splenda and several boxes of no sugar added fudgepops at 40 calories each.  I rationalized Lucky Charms as my "sleeping meds" a 1/3 cup portion and I get sleepy and I am out in less than 20 minutes at first I counted it as calories but I need to get back to journalizing my food so I know where I am at. 

Exercise has been good this month, I have done three days of running a week for four weeks now as well as dance every week.  Yesterday was the first time I skipped due to a long session at the mall it was almost 11pm before I got home.  I actually enjoyed the mall time, at 365 it was painful trying to keep up with a 15 year old.  I walked at a clip that resulted in passing most people, I don't recall being passed by anyone.  One hundred pounds ago it was the opposite with me passing noone.  I ran up the stairs in the middle rather than one step at a time or finding the escalator.

I stopped to get a few things at the grocery on the way home.   The dang Tim Horton's latte machine had spoiled milk in it.  I drank three mouths driving home before I opened it to look and eeeww.  That will teach me to try it BEFORE leaving the store.

I recall being 345 for the longest time and I was never unhappy.  Life is too short to be unhappy.  Life happens and you deal with it, things could be worse - blindness, loss of mobility, death, being a racistic or a bigot all options I would take my fatness over any day. 

During the ten months it took me to get to surgery I recall struggling at 335 to 340 for what seemed like forever, still under medicated on my thyroid and frequently tired. Yeah life was bad for me at 365 so I saw a doctor and found out I had diabetes, hypothyroid and sleep apnea and started fixing it ten months before the surgery by watching what I ate, exercising and taking my meds.  When the doctor undermedicated me I sought out a specialist and felt better than ever.

I am 253 and very happy with that even though I know more weight loss is in my future.  I am wearing a Champion XL workout pants with baggy legs when I stand and  an Old Navy XL TShirt  that fits perfect.   I still don't have a job but I am free from a boss that was the biggest bully I ever knew and karma will get him in the end as I have seen it get others.  I can run a half mile without a rest, I can run up stairs that I used to take both feet one step at a time.

Off to go play with the raw chicken I bought last night.  The longer the soulvaki meat marinades before dinner the better it will be.   Pictures soon.

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