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I had my first vacation, which is why I was gone for so long.  I got to say next time I need to mentally prepare better.  Seeing so many diffrent people made it very difficult to keep up with vitamins and protein requirements.  I lost 11 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks while gone.  I hope I didn't do any damage, I don't think so.  I was doing pretty good I think I only "completely" missed my vitamins on one day.  The rest I would forget to take my second vitamin pill.  I also reached my first goal of reaching onederland!  I think I weight less than the 189 I saw yesterday because I have been BLOCKEd up.  I know it's from the iron pills so I need to get it together!  I bought some yogurt so we will see how that goes.  Anyways, more updates soon I am beat. 

I am almost to my first weight loss goal post op, being to reach onederland!!  I am at 201 51 pounds lost, and 2 pounds away, this is so exciting, it really makes me want to go work out :)

Let me say that I haven't really "changed" in clothing size as far as I know.  I was wearing "stretchy" clothing all day everyday so I didn't really know my size I do know my wedding dress was a size 24 two years ago.  I have a pair of jeans I can wear that are a 19.  So i have gone down a bit, but I wouldn't consider it until I am out of plus sizes.  Anyways, regaurdless of pant size I was looking for some cheap buys and clothes shopping has become fun.  Shopping has never been fun before when I was looking for clothes, it was always a disappointment.  Now it's a delightful surprise.  I will hold up things and say to myself "no way" then try them on and sometimes they'll be too big, or they fit just right.  It's really nice :)  I am hopeful I will be wearing non-plus size jeans soon enough!

http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com

she is really cool :)

About a week ago I go some labs done and today I got a call from my PCP's nurse.  Everything looks good for the most part, the things I thought would be an issue aren't.  In fact I was worried my protein levels would be low, but no.  My protein levels and my B12 levels are actually high according to her.  The reason for the call however was that I have very low iron.  My PCP ordered me some iron suppliments and I am to pick them up today.  I just asked my surgeon last week if I should take iron yet, when he said to start taking calcium and flax seed oil.  He said to wait until I got back my first set of labs. Unforntunately, he is out of town until Monday, so I won't know what he thinks of my levels until then.  I feel healthy, MY THYROID IS NORMALLLLL, cholestoral is NORMALLLL, and everything looks good.  So I am not worried, I just want to make sure my iron levels go up and I will feel a lot better.  I am hopeful :)

I just wanted to compile a list of things I can't live without post op.  Here it goes, in no particular order:

IsoPURE Low Carb Protein Powder(Dutch Chocolate) from GNC

Folders DeCaf Coffee for shakes

Blender Shaker from GNC again for shakes

Mr. Scale, might seem weird, but for good weeks and bad weeks Mr. Scale keeps me in check and reminds me when I am working hard, or hardly working

Bariatric Advantage Chewable Vitamins, suggested by my friend Joanne, AMAZING!

My other vitamins B12, Flax Seed Oil, and Calcium

My Wii, for the days I simply can't bring myself to hit the gym, I can get a good workout in the comfort of my home :)  I have Wii Fit and Wii Active

My personal trainer, enough said

Exercise in general

YouTube and Obesity Help for answering my many many questions at all hours of the night

Smart Water

Tilapia and Chicken

Fruits for giving me the delicous change I need now and then


RECENT FINDS:

All from BariatricEating.com I purchased my new vitamins:) almond flour, sugar free honey, sugar free maple syrup, sugar free chocolate bar, and on the go protein snack pack(it comes with protein pretezl sticks, two types of protein drinks Nectar Iced Tea and IsoPure Alpine Punch, a and a protein bar.  Will be great for my upcoming traveling.  

From a youtube video I discovered the Hydracoach www.hydracoach.com, they aren't available in stores in Tampa for some odd reason.  Anyways this amazing product regulates, reminds, and incourages your daily water consumtion.  This is exactly what I need because I am the worst when it comes to getting in my daily water needs.  It also pulls water from the bottom of the bottle to prevent air bubbles, and uses a digital mini computer to calculate many diffrent things.  I am really bad at getting in my water, so this product spoke to me!  Anyways you can check out this video to see a review on the product by another post-op patient.  I will also review my recent finds in about a month.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmEytdhSoAw

I got my ass handed to me last night.  My trainer worked me so hard last night, it felt amazing, I want to go back this morning.  I didn't know I could sweat that much bahaha.

The only problem is that I know how hard I can be pushed, but I don't know if I can keep going without a coach.   It's hard to be your own coach sometimes, especially with exercise.   What I really want to do is start horseback riding and rock climing : )  That's hard work and really fun, they are both kind of expesive hobbies though.  Soon...mark my words.  I can barely move this morning : )

Today I went and got blood drawm to check my levels post-op for the first time.  I hope everything is perfect!

I have been watching a few vlogs lately with some 1 year post-ops who are discussion food addiction.  I always knew I was addicted to food, but it makes me a little frustrated.  First and formost, where is the support for food addiction like with another other addiction?  Sex, porn, drugs, alcohol, nicotine and the list goes on.  No one is talking about the addiction, they like to call everyone who is fat lazy etc but say alcoholism is a diease.  IF this is true, I have a diease, I am a FOOD ADDICT.  I need help.  I am only 2 months post op and find myself grazing.  I can eat fruits with no problem, and though I am still eating tiny amounts, I WANT MORE.  I love that feeling to chew delicious food, then swallow it, after that is just guilt and a terrible full feeling.  Now it's diffrent, if I eat too much there is even more pain.  Before it was more mental and less physical, now my mental and physical pain are matched. Reguardless of how bad I felt I still want to eat as soon as the pain is gone.  It's frustrating as hell. Why can't I be addicted to exercise?  There is just something so satisfying about grocery shopping for me.  I just like to look at everything I bought and am glad I have it all.  What is wrong with me.  I don't want to be this way, I don't want to obess anymore, I am SICK and TIRED.  WLS dosen't fix everything, but I thought I would think about food a little bit less.  This was the case for the first month, but not now.  If I am only 2 months out, how will I be 1 year out?  2 years out? 6 years out?   I don't want to become a failure statistic, but I don't know how to stop my addiction...

Today is my first day with my personal trainer! Yay!  I am excited, but very scared.  I know I am very out of shape.  I know this because my Wii Fit tells me so :)  Seriously though, I can't even do one real push up.  I am glad that he is going to show me what I need to be doing for MY body.  Not every chubby women in America needs to be doing.

I find that exercise dvds help inspire me to do more.  They are helpful.  But,  I think about exercise, and I just want to say no I don't want to "exercise" I want to just live lifeee!  Hiking, skiing, white water rafting, swimming, rock climing, horse back riding,  just adventures.  Am I asking too much to feel like exercise should be, nor was it meant to be some kind of chore?  We are meant to move, dance, run, and play.  I used to play, I can't wait to be able to take adventures again.  

I have been doing Wii fit, and I just bought a fun little "Dance it off" dvd,  I had the Carmen Electra Stiptease Workout, but during a binge eating depression a year ago it was tossed out with the rest of my collection.  They were just too depressing to look at.  I hope that  soon I won't need dvds, or gimmicks, I hope that soon I will just naturally be doing healthy fun activites with the ones I love. 

I also hope I can get past namaste, salutation to the sun, and downward facing dog in Yoga, so I can get to the fun crazy looking poses. Should I join a class?  I think so, I just feel so under eduated and too weak and fat to not get embarassed in front of all the real Yogis.  I am hopeful one day I can call myself a Yogi :)

Namaste ;)

Suggestions on early toning routines would be great!!