Food Addiction/Love Affair

May 26, 2009

I have been watching a few vlogs lately with some 1 year post-ops who are discussion food addiction.  I always knew I was addicted to food, but it makes me a little frustrated.  First and formost, where is the support for food addiction like with another other addiction?  Sex, porn, drugs, alcohol, nicotine and the list goes on.  No one is talking about the addiction, they like to call everyone who is fat lazy etc but say alcoholism is a diease.  IF this is true, I have a diease, I am a FOOD ADDICT.  I need help.  I am only 2 months post op and find myself grazing.  I can eat fruits with no problem, and though I am still eating tiny amounts, I WANT MORE.  I love that feeling to chew delicious food, then swallow it, after that is just guilt and a terrible full feeling.  Now it's diffrent, if I eat too much there is even more pain.  Before it was more mental and less physical, now my mental and physical pain are matched. Reguardless of how bad I felt I still want to eat as soon as the pain is gone.  It's frustrating as hell. Why can't I be addicted to exercise?  There is just something so satisfying about grocery shopping for me.  I just like to look at everything I bought and am glad I have it all.  What is wrong with me.  I don't want to be this way, I don't want to obess anymore, I am SICK and TIRED.  WLS dosen't fix everything, but I thought I would think about food a little bit less.  This was the case for the first month, but not now.  If I am only 2 months out, how will I be 1 year out?  2 years out? 6 years out?   I don't want to become a failure statistic, but I don't know how to stop my addiction...

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