4th Month Weigh In

May 29, 2009

This will be short and sweet considering I haven't accomplish much of my goals. I'm down 1 lb since last month because I have been having some issues with my menstrual. This menstrual thing keeps me in bed for at least 2 days and I can't exercise while I'm on my menstrual. Now even once it is over I'm too tired the following week to get back on track. I'm anemic so this doesn't make it any better. However, my plans is to get back on track the weei of Jun 1st and I'll see if I make any progress within 2 weeks.


Remember my goal was to lose at least 20 lbs before my cruise on Jun 19th. Thus, I just need to lose 4 lbs and I will be well on my way to reaching the goal.

Previous Weight: Apr 09-281
Current Weight:  May 09- 280
Weightloss: 1 lb
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Sleep Study Update

May 28, 2009

Hey fam,

So I wanted to tell you about my experience. Well my appointment was scheduled on a Fri, May 22nd to be exact at 8:30pm. I was so nervous as I had mentioned before and didn't know what to expect. When I arrived the parking lot was emptied only one car parked out front and I thought the place was closed. I had to ring the door bell and this black guy came walking to the door with street clothes on and I was like, nah this can't be right. I told him I needed to see some ID or something and I didn't feel comfortable with just being there with him. I mean, it's not because he was black, but it was more so because he didn't look like he belong, not in his scrubs, you know the right attire. Girl, don't play me, you know when you go to the doctors how you expect the dr and nurses to be dressed. Even down to the chick at the front desk. This dude was looking straight off the street and all. So once he noticed my reactions and what I said, he looked down on his clothes and was like "forgive me, I need to change and I apologize for my appearance". Yeah ok, I need told him I need to check this place out to make sure it was real and I wanted to see his papers and I checked out every room. You got that right. Why is it just one person, where is the staff? Where you sleeping? You tell me your role in this thing? He was cool though because he answered everyone of my questions and let me check every room to make sure I was comfortable. I told him if there isn't another patient walking up in this door within the next 30 mins to a hour I'm out. Once again he laughed. I so wasn't playing with him not on a Friday night in VA up behind some trees. Now if that was my man that would be totally different, but with this guy I don't know from Adam to Eve, I aint having it. Yep, I alerted my kids and people to give them the number to where I was at. I double checked the phones to make sure there was a dial tone and up and working. I even checked for cell signal. No I wasn't playing.

Needless to say his next patient showed up and he was dissappointed because he just wanted it to be just me there, you know less work for him. I told him that wouldn't work for me. All in all it took forever for him to put the wires and attachments all on me because he was too busy talking to me about where I'm from. I asked him one question and that was 'are you married". He said yes and he moved to Richmond because of his wife. I shut that conversation down and told him "well could you please stop asking all these questions about me and my life becuase you are a married man . Now if you were single then I would be more than happy to engage." Mind you I don't feel comfortable with you having to touch me on my sides and stuff. Yes Girls, I have some hot zones you know the zones that get you right in the mood. Only my dude who is out of commission right now knows about them. Considering I haven't had relations in awhile due to my wall I have built up, I was about ready to break the wall in one punch and grab his behind up and blow out some steam to the point the wires and all electricity will be blown out . I"m so not playing and you might think I am, thank the Lord I'm a good Christian woman who has some morals and self respect. Hallelejuha- Praise Him

Ok, let me bring it back. That was a moment. He respected what I said about him being married and replied "I appreciate your honesty I haven't meet one like you down here, so I get it. You New Yorker". Any hoo, he put that gel crape in my hair as a glue to stick on the patches to monitor my brain waves, I was like, are you guys going to reimburse me for my braids. He laughed. I was like no I'm serious, what if this stuff don't come out. It was so sticky and just knowing that it was there was a little annoying especially since he wanted me to lay down and look at me via the camera in the room. Asking me to breathe, cough, turn here, turn there, I was like Dude I'm not a pet I don't roll nor bark. I'm not use to these commands, so please look at me throught the camera see that I'm breathing by these tubes in my nose and mouth and lets keep it moving. He said I was a comedian, no I'm not, just nervous and inpatient. I also bugged him out because he only had 1 pillow on the bed. I was like what am I going to do with 1, you see I'm a big girl I need at least 4 the minimum. He was like 4, are you serious and I'm like yeah, I have 12 on my bed at home. I love cushion and since I move around a lot, I build a baracade. He had a joke, like Fort Knox, wow that is crazy. Thus I had the majority of the pillows in the facility and my neighbor, well I don't know how many she had, but as sistah was putting in her dibs. Like I told him, you guys said that you would make this a comfortable as possible, well please do so. He really was patient and cool with me.

I can't sleep without the tv on and some light when I know this place isn't home. The place was freezing one minute and the next it was warm. I believe I was having flashes up in there. For real. I even had to turn on the fan off and on when I was too cold or warm. I slept with my sweater on all night even though he didn't want me to because I would mess up the wires, but it was an open jacket so he didn't fuss much. He was a little disturb because I didn't fall asleep until like 12:30am. So he kept calling me from his loud speaker trying to talk me into going to sleep. He said that if I didn't go to sleep then he was going to come in the room. Well, I so wasn't going to let that happen, remember my wall image? I eventually feel asleep.

The following morning he woke me up at 5am to take all the stuff off and I washed my face and brushed my teeth. I started to wash that glue crape out of my hair and had him to help me. He was like didn't you say you were going to wash your hair, I was like yes, but you need to help me start he process since you put it in there. I can't see int he back of my head. He just shook his head and helped. He walked me to the door and told me to have a nice day and remain a honest pleasant woman. I believe he is a West Indian man, he had the features and speech. YOu know they love  them some big bottie girls.

All in all the experience felt like a scene out of the movies, the atmosphere, setting and all. I'm glad the the Lord protected me and shield me with his armour to avoid any potential harm. Now I'm waiting on the results.
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Another Step- Sleep Study

May 18, 2009

OMG , so I thought that I wouldn't have to do the study until the insurance carrier approves the surgery first, but the nurse practioner had me setup to complete this step now. I'm really nervous about this process because I really don't know what it entails. I mean to sleep in a room that isn't mines is nerve wrecking and to have a person looking at me while I sleep in a like a small room I'm imagining that I will be isolated. I know it could just be my head playing tricks on me, but I've seen way too many scary movies and I don't want to feel as if I will be trapped in the crazy house .

If any of you guys had to undergo this study, please hit me up and let me know what to expect. This will help ease my mind, seriously. They said they will send me the information in the mail, but I just have to know what to expect.

- Is it setup like a hotel room?
- Is there a tv for me to watch?
- What about bathrooms?

My appointment is scheduled for May 22nd and it is on a Friday and I was happy that they do that on a Friday instead of me having to rush back home to get ready for work.


Keep your fingers crossed and pray for me.

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3rd Month Weigh In

Apr 30, 2009

Here I'm now in my 3rd month and I've lost another 7 lbs since March. Previously I was 288 and now I'm at 281. I'm doing good and didn't think that I could make it this far. If I could do this without the surgery and in preparation for it, then I know I will be able to get through it once I officially have the surgery.

This 6 months weigh in is killing me though because i want to have my surgery right now. I'm so anxious to really start losing more weight and be on the loser table.  Eventually I will get there and then I will be looking fly and fabolous like you guys.

wish me luck

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2nd Month Weigh In

Mar 27, 2009

Wohoo!  I've lost 9 lbs in 30 days. Now I know that aint a big number compare to my people on OH, but I'm very proud of myself as I lost the weight prior to surgery. That is a big step and I've learned many things in the process.

- I've been detoxing and this could have aid in the weight loss; however I just started to detox on Mar 14th which was 2 weeks ago. I had an Ion cleanse and I'm on vitamins B, B12, Tyroid, Kidney Activator and an Herbal Laxative to help purge the toxins. I know some may think this is a little extreme, but it could be working a little miracle.

- I've been liquid dieting for a little while now, until I cheated on that one day. I felt so bad, but still saw some results. I enjoy the liquid diet though and will continue with this. I drink a protein shake in the morning consisting of 60 grams and I drank another prior to Jazzercise. I like it :+)

- I'm now eating mostly salads and NO MEAT at all. I'm a seafood lover and was just informed by one of my peeps that shrimp, lobster and crabs are bottom feeders and aren't healthy for the system. Good GOD I love me some seafood and if I can't eat the chicken, I be dam if I let the seafood be taken away. I will go postal. I'll eat it in moderation though. I'm in love   with Vietnamese soups. They are the bomb.

- I've eliminated any snacking other than fruits and Extra Watermelon gum from my diet.

- I'll continue with the exercising as it makes me feel better, but hopefully I will see some real results.

I just had to share as I'm proud and I just hope to lose so much more prior to weightloss surgery.

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I'd Cheated Today

Mar 23, 2009

My goodness, I've cheated on Sunday Mar 22nd from being so good and deligent. I took my kids to the Universoul Circus and my little boy wanted everything under the son. I only let him get the popcorn and cotton candy besides his light up sword. This was his 1st circus, so I try not to deprive him from too many things.

So as for me, I ate the dam popcorn like crazy. My daughter didn't want any as she was saving her appetite for the Funnel Cake. Now I know you guys know about the Funnel Cake and how warm, soft, sweet and delicious this cake is. I said that I wanted one too and she was like "well stop eating the popcorn". I so needed to hear that and I told her well you hold on to it instead because if I keep holding it I'm going to eat it.

Long story short I ate a Funnel Cake afterwards and felt so guilty about it. I mean literally. Now after I ate it I'm like how many calories do you think was in that? What was the fat content ? Then I realize I was driving her and myself crazy. My son wanted some McDonald's and I brought him a happy meal and her a grilled ckn sandwich (my daughter had stopped eating mickey d's, but decided to eat the sandwich for dinner). I had 7 pieces of fries and she was like "you should had eliminated the fries because you don't really need it:. I'm like you little hoochie stop making me feel bad. So I had the rest of my rice noodle soup from the Vietnamese place for dinner.

At 1:30am in the morning the toilet was calling me and Scott was my best friend. There was more than some rumble in the bronx up in ther. Long and behold my daughter was following right behind. I believe it was that darn McD, but you know I have been doing so well with my eating and all a sistah fell off the wagon. I'm going to dust my shoulders off and get back to work.

Pray for me

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Jazzercise and Skinny Witches (except my WLS peeps)

Mar 18, 2009

I just want to say thank you to all my peeps who are encouraging me.

I really appreciate the time you all put in your thoughts and opinions.

You know we are our worst critics and I'm really trying to put in the effort before hand so that I know what I'm up against.

Here's an update:

So I've finally visited the GNC store because many of you suggested that I try the protein bullet. Long and behold when I went there last night, the sales clerk said there is no such thing and he never heard of it. Thus, he recommend that I start off with the Wheybolic Extreme 60 which suppose to be 60 grams of straight protein. I haven't had the chance to use just yet, but was planning on drinking this evening and then again in the morning.

I've been visiting this exercise class called Jazzercise. Have any of you been? Girl, let me tell you how I was so shock that I've kept up with steps, well it is mostly dancing and whatever I didn't know, a sistah made her one two step. Once they started playing Beyonce Single Ladies, I took the instructor off routine and everyone was free styling trying to keep up with me. I didn't realize I had that much energy, but I think it is because I had to prove to them that just because I'm big doesn't mean a sistah can't hang. However, it could be the Crystal Light drink I'm drinking that promotes energy and the one that boosts your metabolism. This class was for 1 hour   and my skinny peeps keep stopping and asking you aint tired yet. I was like naw I'm good sistah, you better keep up and if I pass out after this class you know where the nearest hospital is at. See how the buddy system works.

Can I be honest? When I woke up this morning, my body was killing me. I was feeling pain in places that I haven't worked out in years and places where I didn't know exist. But, I'm going back again today to show them what I got and besides it is free for 7 days and I get to exercise for that price FREE . Not sure if I'm going to sign up yet, but I just might. I'm trying to see if I could lose some weight prior to my surgery.
 

I'm eating salads now like crazy, but the bad thing about it is that darn Ceasar Dressing, I have to kick that to the curb, but the salad is the bomb  with chick peas, corn, dried cranberries and parmesan cheese. I know, I know, it is no longer a healthy salad.

Oh Lord Forgive a sistah for trying :+(

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Part I- Liquid Diet Approach

Mar 05, 2009

I so feel like a failure, no seriously because my plan is to just do liquids for 2 weeks. I'm struggling with doing just this one thing. I want to try and ween myself from off of the starchs and sugars and get more real protein in as well as water to flush out the toxins. I would drink a Slim Fast for breakfast and then like an hour later I'm hungry, so I would chew on some gum and this isn't working. Now, I decided that I would eat a Mozzerella string cheese to curb my appetite and headaches that I'm experiencing. The cheese work some what, but a sistah be hungry.

I don't want to see myself as a failure but if I can't do this simple task and it is a must to be able to do once I have the surgery, then what will happen to me post op? I'm going to be one sick puppy if I can't keep it together.

I need to add more fiber to my diet as well, but I can't afford to be having accidents at work and all, so I have to moderate this part of my plan.

Any suggestions will be helpful my people.
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1st Month Weigh In

Feb 26, 2009

Well this morning at the advice of my people I'm going to go to the dr at a set date of every month to get weigh in. Not only did I go in for that, but since it is the beginning of the year I have to get some new blood work done for my Cholesterol, Blood Sugar level, etc... As I had moved from one location at work to another location I couldn't see my on site PCP thus, I couldn't get checked regularly as planned. I also, stopped taking my BP pills because I was feeling fine and truth be told in denial that I needed to continue to take them. Now, on top of this whenever I try and work out I start to feel dizzy well dah it was because of my pressure. Go figure.

Now I'm on two medication for my blood pressure. Yes 2 I went from one to 2 and I'm not feeling this ish. Hell to the Naw something has gots to give. I've decided that I need to be off the pill unless it is birth control and there are other options for that.

I'm going to start training my body and mind for this journey, so I'm going to try a liquid diet for the next 2 weeks. I figured I might as well get use to it now, since this is what I have to look forward to during the first 2-3 weeks of my new life. My plan is as follows:

Morning am:    walk on treadmill for 30 mins
Morning am:    protein shake & 32 ozs of water
Afternoon:     chicken broth or creamy soup & 32 ozs of water
No Snacking:   This is going to be hard  (I'm so use to snacking even if it is a piece of mozzerella cheese)
Dinner:          walk on treadmill for 30 mins
Dinner:          broth

I'll have to update my blog on how this will work for me. I'm going to be so cranky.
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Psychologist Appt- 2nd Step Completed

Feb 24, 2009

Ok, so this morning I had my appointment and I was very nervous even though a couple of my co workers told me not to be, it was impossible to not be. Feel me? Well, she wasn't as bad as I thought, but she asked me a lot of questions about my past, eating habits, family, friends, etc...

I found in some ways our conversation was a little redundant because she was talking about eating habits and food and all like I did with the nutritionist. The crazy thing about it is she kept asking me in different ways if I overeat due to depression. I was like I'm about to flip out  on this chick because you just asked me that but differently . See I told you that they are all about getting up in the head of a person.

The takeaway from this meeting is that I need to eat 3 meals a day with no snacking and she thinks that I might have a hard time doing that due to my work schedule and all. She said that if they feel that I could eat just 3 meals with no snacks then she doesn't see that there will be any problems with me going through the surgery. I told her I had snacked in between because with all the diets that I've tried said that you had to eat 5 times a day to build up your metabolism, you know like Slim Fast, Weight Watchers, etc..

We will see if they decide to resend me back to a psychologist, hopefully not because I just want to move on with this.

Another one down, next step please.
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About Me
glen allen, VA
Location
40.9
BMI
RNY
Surgery
11/09/2009
Surgery Date
Feb 06, 2008
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