Stronger every day

Feb 06, 2017

Today when I lifted up a bucket of Kitty Litter -- 40 pounds -- I thought how amazing it is that I have lost more than that! And it was HEAVY! Imagine carrying around that much all the time. I did! And now, I've lost 51 pounds, and I'm amazed.

I'm also amazed at how generally good I've felt and that I haven't felt like I'm deprived or suffering. There are times when I want to eat more of something because it tastes good, but when I think about the pain I'll suffer if I fill up too much ... that slows me down.

I imagine my torso to be filled with spaces and air pockets and rivers and tunnels, and sometimes those spaces fill up with noxious air, painful gas, that seeps around throughout my body in a kind of bue haze, pressing against my internal organs and making them hurt. And somewhere in there is my tiny new stomach pouch and it is crammed full of food and it is moaning in pain, and the staples -- what about the staples? Are they getting loose? Are they straining? Are they now grown into my body? I just wonder about those staples....

Important moments:

Realizing some of my rings were too loose to wear.

Realizing some of the rings I've loved and haven't worn in years now fit!

The first time I wore a shirt tucked in! 1/6/17

The first time I was able to eat Chinese food. 1/4/17

The first time I ate chicken ... but ate too much and had some sad consequences. 12/27/16

The day someone said they could tell I lost weight in my face, neck and chest.

The eay I was able to trim my toenails without feeling like I would suffocate! Huge. 1/26/17

The day my friend Ann told me my winter coat was too big and just hung on me. 2/5/17

It's exciting to think about what other important moments are ahead!

 

 

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