cherryblossoms
Clearing negativity : )
Mar 10, 2011
It's been a couple of scary months for me, but I'm still here : ) Alive and kicking and in good health, it seems, recovering from my kidney stone, septic shock hospitalization last month then lithotripsy on the 1st of this month. My Doctor was successful in turning the stone to dust, and I am grateful for that. I have a minor UTI, but am feeling generally well. I am now drinking water like a fish, room temp, and I'm getting MUCH more in now that I am not taking teeny sips, but normal ones ~ over 8 glasses each day, and I can really tell the difference. I guess I thought, like many newbie RNY'ers that my new stomach would break or something if I took bigger swallows.My daughter, who flew in from CO the day after I was released from the hospital flew back today. She was here for a month, and was such a comfort and help to me. I really appreciated her fresh and young lively perspective as I was letting myself sink pretty low, but I'm feeling kind of sad about her leaving, as I wish we lived closer, but I am happy she is starting her new job and has a good life and husband. I love her very much. While she was here we went to the aquarium and saw " True Grit" at the theater which I thought was really good, and watched a few "on demand" flicks at home " 127 Hours' ( really good) " Due Date" ( good too)
I get my stent taken out this Wed at my Doctors office ~ a simple 30 second procedure, done with numbing solution..... my Doc says then I should be in the clear. I probably got this stone from eating Tums constantly for several years. I hope to God I have no more complications that wind me up in the hospital. I guess one reason I dislike being hospitalized so much is because I am such a hard IV stick and I dislike needles.
I'm taking my vitamins as prescribed:
Morning: calcium citrate chew 500 mg, B12 sub lingual, B1, multi.
mid morning: calcium citrate 500
afternoon: dry vitamin E, vitamin A/D ,Iron
evening: calcium citrate 500, multi
later: iron, biotin, subling B complex
I'm not the only person in the world who has gone throu problems..... but sometimes I feel like it especially with the newness of this surgery still sinking in I felt like it all became just.... overwhelming, but I must, for my own sake, be strong again... look on the positive side... isn't it why I had this surgery in the first place? and stop dwelling on all the bad things because right at this moment I am fine, and continuing to dwell on what happened to me will just drag me down, and it's over. I'm OK : ) I must take a good look at my strengths and coping and start to live again.... instead of doubting and what ifs....
I'm going to go to my first support group this Saturday, looking forward to that... to meeting some people in person who have been thru surgery.
I'm eating well too. Drank some prune juice for constipation today, and it worked along with all the hydration I'm giving myself now. I will never let myself become dehydrated again. I have learned the hard way how important it is.
Been pondering about my stone blockage experience and the way it symbolizes my own negative emotional blockages I have created in my life. It can be cleared... that is my lesson I take from this.
